u/Slytherclaw4551

In my early 20s still living at home with my boomer parents. I pay for my own gas, phone, groceries, rent, do whatever chores/errands I’m asked of, and rarely ask for anything from them, but I’m still financially dependent for things like health insurance and car payments (I don’t own a car I use their spare one). I’m trying to get another job and make a plan to move out by the end of the year.

I’m much more introverted than my parents and basically spend most of my time in my room. I’m an artist as well, so ofc most of my time is spent drawing and doing art commissions and working on my youtube channel so hopefully that can be my main thing one day. I love being independent and am happiest when I’m alone, but for some reason they see this as a problem and are constantly trying to force me out of my space. My mom set a new rule that I need to spend at least 1 hour every day outside (I’m in my 20s mind you), which, as someone who doesn’t even hate being outside so long as I choose to, has killed any motivation for me to actually do it. She’s also threatened to raise my rent over things as small as getting a tattoo (I got my first one last year without telling her and she acted like I got pregnant or something.) she also still forces me to go to church (even tho I’m an atheist now) and has also tried to pressure me into voting for certain people and (half?) joking that she’d kick me out if I didn’t. Plus I went my entire teen years having depression and adhd but she refused to take me to a therapist until I was 18 because she was more concerned about whether the therapist would be a Christian rather than her own daughter’s mental health.

The going outside thing was the last straw for me because she literally said “it’s not an option” and now I’m worried if she actually means it that it’ll mean higher rent if I refuse to do it. I want to draw the line not because I’m a hermit and don’t want to be outside, but because I don’t want my parents to think they can control my day just because I’m their child. I’m fine with having responsibilities while living at home but this in particular really pisses me off.

I’m aware I probably have things much better than most people, but I absolutely hate it here and want to get out asap, but until then I know I need to grow a spine and talk to them but I’m scared to and don’t know how.

I played this game when I was around 4 or 5 so it would’ve at least been 2008 or earlier, though it very possibly could have been from the 90s just from the graphics. We had it on a cd rom and I remember almost nothing about it aside from the host character was a 3d animated Jack in the box and the games were for preschool/kindergarten age kids (puzzles, numbers, etc.) I haven’t found any pictures online that look like they could be it and I don’t remember the name of the game either. Probably the only reason I remember the jack in the box is because it was slightly creepy looking and had an annoying voice. Honestly the closest thing I could compare it to would be baldi’s basics just from the pixelated 3d graphics and the uncanny vibe.

I’ve been diagnosed with moderate/severe anxiety and I’ve been trying to get a YouTube channel going for years now and have only made a few shorts and one actual video. It’s a dream of mine to be a YouTuber, and despite it scaring me I still want to make videos for a living. I did voiceover for my one video and it was extremely hard but I felt really proud of myself for doing it. Except then my family found out about the video and shared it with basically my entire extended family, and now I have a bunch of people subscribed to me who I never intended my videos to be seen by. I feel like now I can’t be as free with my content and the anxiety of making a second video has more than doubled what it was when I was making my first one.

Now it’s been almost a year since I last uploaded, and I’ve been trying to get a second video finished for three months but every time I go to sit down and make it I just can’t do it. I don’t care if people I don’t know see my videos, but I do care if people I’m related to who I have to interact with regularly see my videos. I don’t know how to describe it but it feels invasive almost. I also hate when they bring it up in conversations even if it’s positive because it feels like they don’t take it seriously, and having to explain my interests and goals to relatives (who are all old) over and over again is exhausting.

I know it’s a me issue and I wish I wasn’t so self conscious about it but I don’t know how to get over this. If anyone has any advice I’d really appreciate it.