u/Round-Strain-1269

I project myself on u

Then back to me

There's a reason that she doesn't call me back

It's the way

It's the way it really seems

Y u acting like u fucking forgot me

I luv to get numb ..

They all gonna laugh

Same hoes talking on what they never know

They'll learn to reap what they sow

I'll be the one to teach them math

Complexity in holding their hand

With the same one that reach for the hip

I used to look in their eyes when I speak

Now never explain

just let it hit

Make sure they never forget

Now they scream

Saying sorry they never mean

I know now love they never meant

Regret in every heart I sent

But I don't wanna be the fool

In anger I've always known the sore loser

For a play of words I secretly keep a tool

No cheating in a game I never agreed to

They search for the fragility in me they once knew

But that's a side even I mourn losing

A limerence buried beside a girl I miss

Cuz I grieve the days when a kiss was just a kiss

They undressed the suit into disdain

Convinced me mutual love was something insane

They thought my cries would only turn cold

But I never stagnated inside my cope

They severed our ties

I made a noose from the rope

Horribly smiled stabbing myself

With the same knives left in my back

Learned to savor wine dripping from the cracks

Back when I still believed in hope

Now powder in my nose

A different kinda smoke

The extreme of a newer life

I ain't the one they once knew

Words turned wounds

Scarred me indefinitely

In places I once let them see

So I feed my fire with those sticks and

stones

The same ones that pierced me sitting alone

Now I show them the extreme

Of the reality they taught to me

Bang.

Then suddenly

Their world spills the same color

We were all taught to call love

Red.

Roses

Valentines

Sweet cherry kisses

Red.

The color of lust disguised as devotion

The shade behind temptation in motion

Purity colliding with sin

Still maybe I'll let another in

But until then

I'll follow memory to the edge of the earth

Red trailing behind every step

Not death

But the burial

Of who we were instead.

Dead.

Like the version of us I saw in the future

now gone before it ever arrived

All I see now is

Red

They all gonna laugh

Same hoes talking on what they never know

They'll learn to reap what they sow

I'll be the one to teach them math

Complexity in holding their hand

With the same one that reach for the hip

I used to look in their eyes when I speak

Now never explain

just let it hit

Make sure they never forget

Now they scream

Saying sorry they never mean

I know now love they never meant

Regret in every heart I sent

But I don't wanna be the fool

In anger I've always known the sore loser

For a play of words I secretly keep a tool

No cheating in a game I never agreed to

They search for the fragility in me they once knew

But that's a side even I mourn losing

A limerence buried beside a girl I miss

Cuz I grieve the days when a kiss was just a kiss

They undressed the suit into disdain

Convinced me mutual love was something insane

They thought my cries would only turn cold

But I never stagnated inside my cope

They severed our ties

I made a noose from the rope

Horribly smiled stabbing myself

With the same knives left in my back

Learned to savor wine dripping from the cracks

Back when I still believed in hope

Now powder in my nose

A different kinda smoke

The extreme of a newer life

I ain't the one they once knew

Words turned wounds

Scarred me indefinitely

In places I once let them see

So I feed my fire with those sticks and

stones

The same ones that pierced me sitting alone

Now I show them the extreme

Of the reality they taught to me

Bang.

Then suddenly

Their world spills the same color

We were all taught to call love

Red.

Roses

Valentines

Sweet cherry kisses

Red.

The color of lust disguised as devotion

The shade behind temptation in motion

Purity colliding with sin

Still maybe I'll let another in

But until then

I'll follow memory to the edge of the earth

Red trailing behind every step

Not death

But the burial

Of who we were instead.

Dead.

Like the version of us I saw in the future

now gone before it ever arrived

All I see now is

Red

Can you tell me sweet things?

Rhetorical I know the real answer tho

I did You Wrong

My heart went out of place

And in the game

I lost you

What a price to pay...

I'm crying

Ohhhh baby baby :(

Each night under this moon

I sit alone

Hoping you get home soon

Come home soon

I sit in my room

Each and every night

Wondering how you are

Are you feeling all alone?

For I, miss you sooo

For I, love you soooo :(

And I never let you go...

In my very last goodbye. Maybe not last for me cuz u know I cant get over this and u r already over it but u agreed to never reply to me not matter what so I can finally move on too. I hope in my final absence, you find happiness that I could never give you. I wish you nothing but the best deep deep in my heart i hope you have everything you ever want. Keep building lol ill try to mind my own buissness :)

And I cant force myself to feel differently. Its just how I feel and I havent been able to want anyone else