I've been into MBTI for a while now, but I still have this existential doubt: I don't know if my dad is an ESTJ, an ESTP, or maybe something else I haven't considered. I know about cognitive functions, but even that hasn't cleared up my doubts. Let's just say he's too relaxed to be an ESTJ, but there are certain things that seem to belong to that type. I just want to know how to identify him without falling into stereotypes.
I’m at a point where I don’t know what to do anymore.
To give you some context, I was born into a very devout Catholic family. I’ve received almost all my sacraments (except Confirmation), and I’ve been in my parish’s Sunday school since I was a little kid. Years have passed, and now I’m on track to become a catechist myself. The problem? I’m only doing it so I don’t hurt my family’s feelings.
It all started when I stopped praying. Little by little, I drifted away, and I no longer feel that "fear of God" for everything I do. I’ve discovered different points of view, and now I question every single thing related to religion. I still go through the motions and receive the sacraments, but again, it’s just to keep the peace at home.
The truth is, I have no desire to "fix" my faith or look for another religion. However, I’m still scared of what might happen if I walk away for good. I’m even going to be a catechist, but I’m planning to do it for 5 years at most because I have no idea what my future holds.
Part of me wants to get my faith back just to feel that connection with my family again, but once you explore other perspectives, there’s no turning back.
Do you think I need to make a decision right now, or should I just keep playing the part?