u/Puzzleheaded-Gur3167

I'm back down to 115kg, I was 109kg/220lbs at 12/20 and 115kg at 9/29. I'm going on vk next Thursday and my family will be eating out at restaurants for the 2 days we are there for each meal. And on vk it will be hard to get my normal 10k steps in unless they have a trail in walking distance. I will do 10min of stretches each day. Maybe also 25 sit ups each day aswell. Any other tips? My goal is to maintain or lose on vk. My goal is to get down to 100kg by September. I'm female 5'8

I want like 10-20 minutes of relaxed laying down at my feet while I do something even if I'm ancey. Ex:while at a horse show. I also need tips on how to tire her out before working, she has too much energy. I currently walk with her 10k steps a day and do 5-10 min refresh training a day and 5-10min Agility training every other day. And than if she works(she's in training so it depends on the week) that adds another 30min-3 hours a week

I was going on vk in a few days and I had to eat all the food left in my fridge before I left so it wouldn't go bad. And I wasn't hungry yk I was like I don't wanna eat all this and I started omading. BUT my vk was pushed back to next week and I still have food left and I already want food at 7am???!?? When I thought vk was this week I wasn't hungry till 2pm-5pm. WTF????

I used to cook bacon on the stove top like a normal fucking person, it was my favorite food and the only thing I didn't care about calories with. Than a few months ago I moved in with my grandpa(I was forced, I have no choice) he said I can only cook bacon in the oven. Now it not only takes longer to cook but now I always fucking burn it no matter how I time it. So now I cry everytime I try to make bacon cause I burn it. And now I wanna fucking purge cause I ate the bacon anyway and I hate burnt bacon

I've had many thoughts about competition and getting worse and this one is probably the weirdest😅. Since I got a watch that tracks heart rate 2 weeks ago. I've started to try and get my heart rate as high as I can, my most common is 165-170. However my highest was 185 and I wanna get that high again and even try to reach 200bpm. This is definitely not healthy but idk

I cut on my upper calf. About a week after I did it I went to the doctor for my yearly check up and showed them. They did wound care and 2 days later(now today) I went back to change the bandage and they said it's getting infected and if it gets any worse they might have to amputate. I told them I'm not going back unless I get a fever or any real bad symptoms. I used to want to get an amputation to show how bad I am. But now that I've actually been told this I don't care. I don't care if I lose it or keep it🤷‍♀️. I still don't feel bad enough but I know it will never be bad enough.

I wasn't gonna even purge this meal, I didn't even think about it. But someone ate or threw out my cheese. A few days ago the same thing happened, my mom ate the cheese, she said she was sorry and she'd buy more, she did but now it's fucking gone. I haven't had a single meal this week i haven't purged, i even purged an apple on Monday. This doesn't just happen with food, last month my grandpa threw out $100 worth of my dogs supplements. And this week my dogs shoes are also gone that I paid $60 for. Today I also tried to look for bandaid cause my feet have blisters from walking, it was almost a full pack a few days ago, now they are no where to be seen. So I obviously started crying, and than I went to my room TW SELF INJURY ->!and strangled myself a bit, not to die but because I couldn't press the blade deep enough to reach fat layer. !<

I have hip pain so that could be it but my hip pain is only a few minutes per mile than it goes away again. But my pace is 53 minutes for a 2k so far, would be 50min if my hip didn't act up. I feel like I'm going fast and I'm trying so hard. My goal is to do a 2k in 40min in 4 weeks from now. I'm female and definitely a beginner, I only started walking daily 1-2 months ago, I do walk 8-10k steps a day just split into 6 walks