u/PrestigiousCell5956

I’m completely heart broken that I’m not a virgin for my marriage. I’ve had some extenuating circumstances in my life, a brain tumor, but it doesn’t matter. What’s done is done. I can’t even bring myself to explain it anymore because it makes no difference.

I lost a relationship with someone I really cared for because he’s a virgin and I’m not. I’m not even upset about it, he’s right to wait for a virgin. Everyone should. It just makes me sad.

I’m angry that society lied to me, that my parents didn’t talk to me about sex, that I never knew what a hymen was, that I never knew to value my virginity. I’m sad that my first time was so meaningless and painful, I’m sad that I’m left with this trauma about something that should be a gift.

I’ll meet someone else who won’t care, but he should care. I care.