so I’m a 20 yr old male, I dont really like to put labels on my sexuality, but for the sake of the question I’m talking about me, a biological male having sex with biological women. I’ve always wanted, since I was 14, a huge family with a ton of kids (not adopting. I respect it, but I really just want kids that look like me and have my DNA) and I really just want to have as many kids as possible.
the thing is, a little bit ago, I was looking at a vagina while having some ‘persona time’ (usually I never actually look at one, i usually just look at the women or if I’m having sex Its in the dark because im scared of making a weird face or doing something equally embarrassing, so i dont usually see it when i eat it) and i was extremely put off. to give some context, i can watch porn while eating, and have a very strong stomach. I even run competitions for money with my friends to see who can keep eating while watching disgusting videos of things like how sausages are made, and I always win.
Looking at a vagina legitimately made me gag.
i thought it’d have to just be that one that made me sick to my stomach, but i kept looking at them, and it kept happening. I tried to look at diagrams of the vagina to see if I’m looking at some kind of disease, but they really just look gross. it’s like chewed up bubble gum with a hole in it, and crinkly, fleshy masses that stretch, with parts poking out sometimes, and it’s generally all around nasty.
i know i sound like an incel, but I’m genuinely scared to disappoint my girlfriend or hurt her feelings, but I’m scared i won’t be able to get hard or I might gag when we start. can I get tips?