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TW: pregnancy loss

Hey all. I’ve been suffering with my symptoms for 9 years but finally just got formally diagnosed…( if you have ankylosing spondylitis I’m sure you got the “it’s sciatica” treatment too.)

I have no issue getting pregnant but now have had 2 losses at 9 and 11 weeks. The 1st loss had a subchorionic hematoma and was a missed miscarriage. The second loss also had a subchorionic hematoma that was so large and caused me to bleed so much that I went into labor and losses the pregnancy.

Has anyone here:

- had recurrent miscarriages

-been on cimzia or another TNF blocker during pregnancy

-Taken plaquenel during pregnancy even though not Lupus positive.

Sorry if this post is triggering for anyone… just feeling very alone.

TIA💗

Anyone here have an autoimmune disease and going through recurrent loss?

I’m so fucking defeated. Everyone in my life is pregnant. My best friend just had a baby, my sister in laws are both pregnant, my sister is pregnant and due the same day I was, 3 of my cousins are pregnant.

All having good experiences. My first baby was a MMC at 8 almost 9 weeks…. We did have a small hematoma with that pregnancy but there was no bleeding.

My second baby we lost at 11 weeks… i think it was due to a massive SCH hematoma that was passing huge clots. I think my body tried passing the clots and opened my cervix up. “Inevitable abortion”. Baby was kicking around on the ultrasound as we said goodbye to her knowing within a few hours I’d pass her. It was the biggest mindfuck of my life and I still see it every time I close my eyes.

The only thing they can think of is the fact that I have ankylosing spondylitis and might be due to my autoimmune flaring up.

I’m so lost and I’m so broken. No one knows how much I cry every day behind closed doors. I’m probably quitting my job because im a pediatric nurse and can’t do this anymore.