u/Plus_Recognition6701

I think it's a mix of dysphoria and mabey internalized homophobia ??? (I'm bi)

Idk...but how do I get rid of that ???

(Rant post)

Bro pls I'm going crashout. I went to the doctor because I'm sick and in my country you need to get a paper to give your workplace to proof that you're sick and you also need a insurance card.

On that insurance card there is a old picture of me, old name and birth gender.

(Because it takes decades to change that)

That c*nt on the reception (around my age which is 19) asked for that card and first she looked confused. But im used to confused doctors because of that so it's ok. But then she looked again at the card AND ALMOST STARTED LAUGHING ????

hello what's so funny

Was that b*tch transphobic or did I look funny in my picture??

Or am I just overanylizing and overthinking and overdramatizing because it could be because of sth else and not necessarily because I'm trans???

I hope she just randomly thought about some joke from yesterday and sth reminded her of that without anything with me in context.

At my workplace I'm stealth and I never get misgendered but at the working schedule (that everyone can view) it still says my deadname.

Coworkers still call me by my preferred name and noone ever asked me about it... so I wonder what the hell they think when they read it.

My boss introduced me as a new male coworker and with my preferred name but they all still saw my deadname.

And they aren't "woke" enough to never make "mistakes"... they would have already misgendered me like a billion times (because everyone does that when they find out someone is trans let's be real)

Also: what the fuck do I say when they DO ask me about it one day?