u/PinkAlpacaPoodle

I don’t know if anyone else feels this way, but after my first real relationship ended, it’s like something shifted in how I see everything.

He was my first boyfriend, my first in a lot of ways. And even though I know logically that we broke up for a reason, there’s this feeling I can’t shake… like I won’t ever find someone “better.” Not even better, just… someone who feels the same.

It’s weird because I know there are so many people out there. I know I’m young and life goes on and all that. But emotionally, it feels like I already had my person and lost him. Like what if that was it for me?

I catch myself comparing everyone to him, even when I don’t want to. And no one seems to measure up—not because they’re lacking, but because they’re not Him. And I hate that feeling.

Does this go away? Or do you just learn to live with it?

I need advice because I know I’m really in the wrong. I had an ex-boyfriend (first bf) for five years, and everything between us used to be really good. He’s great at almost everything—you name it, he can handle tasks and responsibilities well. However, we chose to part ways to focus on our priorities.

After the breakup, I didn’t keep in touch with him, even though he wanted to communicate, because I felt like he just wanted to keep me around. Now, I have a new boyfriend. I am happy with him, but at the same time, I feel like he might not be the one for me.

One of the main issues I’m struggling with is the differences between me and my current boyfriend. There are certain traits that I find difficult to accept. For example, I see him as irresponsible at times, and he is not very clean, which really bothers me. I also catch myself comparing him to my ex, who was more responsible and organized.

These differences make it hard for me to feel fully satisfied in the relationship. Because of this, I feel conflicted and unsure about what to do. I don’t want to go back to my ex, but I also don’t want to hurt my current boyfriend by feeling this way. Should I leave my current relationship, or should I stay and try to work things out?

Got assigned as a BUFFER for month of April training and honestly… first time + no schedule for medical 😅

So basically naka-standby ko tomorrow night (7:00–10:00 PM) in case incomplete ang batch, then I’ll jump into training at 9:00 PM. If hindi, sa next batch naman.

Medyo confused lang ako—normal ba ‘to na wala pang medical or requirements tapos naka-buffer na agad? 🤔

What’s your say about this setup?

Okay lang ba siya or red flag na?

Any thoughts or ideas kung ano dapat gawin in this situation?

Would really appreciate your opinions 👀