I've been feeling sick for the past few days. I have no desire to eat anything after an intense breakup. I've been living on just small jugs of water and I think I'm reaching a point where I feel like vomiting from just moving too much even while laying down. Are there ways to lessen this feeling? I don't think I can eat, I feel sick just the thought of it.
I'm sorry if you felt betrayed. I loved you, I did everything to make sure you were happy. I'm sorry if my decline in mental health made it impossible for you to see that. You were my special lover and now I have to go on in my life without you.
I haven't eaten at all, love. When you left that day, I've been starving myself because doing anything else would be too messy. I'm sorry I'm doing this to myself. I can see why you left, and I understand that maybe I am a lost cause. I'm sorry for all the pain we've caused each other. I'm sorry for all the arguments that I must've caused. I'm sorry. It hurts seeing you remove me, but still stay friends with all my mutuals. Was I truly that bad that you had to run away when I tried my best to get better at the end for us? I don't care about money... I don't care about food, I don't care about anything. If having your support meant losing then I would have just gone homeless if it meant you stayed here with me.
I feel nauseous and sick. It's funny how I tried my best to stay hopeful, giving you hope and making you smile, has now made me lose faith in everything. It's hard to type, my brain is foggy, I can't think, and I feel so exhausted.
I hope you're doing better than I am. I don't know how long I'm going to be around... but I'll cherish your memories as I sleep the pain away.