How are we celebrating motherhood when it’s drowning us?
Tomorrow is Mother’s Day. And all I want in this world is a happy baby who naps independently and takes a bottle. My 5 month old is incredibly intense and demands me at all hours. I can’t do anything. She is never content for more than 3 minutes at a time. She gets upset in car seats, strollers, carriers, bouncers, arms (if they’re not mine). She won’t take a bottle and we’ve spent months trying. Lactation consultants, OT, SLP, chiropractors, pediatricians, dentists. She will only nurse, which she does inefficiently. I’ve removed dairy. We’ve tried reflux meds. She’s just…high needs. As long as I’m 100% focused on her, she tends to be happy. I’m tethered to her. I can’t parent my older 2 kids. I spend all my time researching how to help this baby. It’s never improved. And her cries are out of this works shrieking. I’m resentful. And then riddled with guilt for feeling that way about my innocent little baby.
I don’t feel like there’s anything to celebrate this Mother’s Day because I’m drowning in motherhood. How are my fellow struggling moms coping?