this is a poem
it has 2 stanzas
this is one
i cant think of a rhyme scheme
so i will include none
this is a poem
that looks much better in a trashcan
because every time that i write
nobody seems to understand
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Red Light Pledge by Silverstein for me
Around last summer, this girl was approaching me when she saw me for a whole week or 2 I forgot how long. I am very socially inept so I acted very awkward, didn’t even know her name or anything. That same weekend after I opened up to my mom about something I’ve been going through, and she left me feeling invalidated. I could not act normal around this girl after that and she was laughing at me and shit. I was acting really weird. Also I may have done embarassing shit like listening to music VERY loud around her. Maybe not on purpose, back then I listened to music at near full volume around everyone. Even if I was wearing AirPods everyone could hear it.
Yesterday in chemistry I came in early because my gym teacher let us go early and I saw her. We looked at each other for like a second and it threw me off for the entire day. I’ve been thinking about how I fucked up and this open opportunity that I missed for far too much these past few days. That’s why I am asking, does she still think im weird because of what happened last year? I’ve been thinking about talking to her.
For most of my life, I have been really shut in and it affected my social life bad. Forever I’ve only really been friends with people I knew from like middle school if not earlier.
Whenever I try to approach someone, it ends up going very awkward. I don’t know what to say when first trying to start a conversation unless there is something to talk about like right in front of me.