u/One-Raspberry4189

I’ve had a tumour for over a year now and haven’t had surgery yet. I’m expecting a date very soon. I need to just put my thoughts somewhere since I don’t want to tell anyone around me how I feel. I’ve changed hospitals and last week was the first time I saw my new neurosurgeon.

All this time for the last year I’d been focusing on having an astrocytoma 2 (referred to at several previous appts) which made me feel slightly better but was told by my new doctor last week there’s a good probability the tumour is actually mixed 2/3 (impression from latest MRI) so there’s some high grade.

Just hearing that was enough to make me burst into tears during the consult. I couldn’t ask questions for the rest of the appt as I couldn’t think properly. I know that having a grade 2 doesn’t mean you’re safe from recurrence but I don’t know, it was used as one of my crutches to help me stay positive.

This morning I got another doctor’s impression of my recent scans and they said the same mixed 2/3. It just sucks. I may need 2 surgeries depending on how the first one goes.

So yeah I just feel a little bit down but never giving up and not hopeless. I do believe in God so I put my burdens on Him and I’m practising not to worry about the future.

I have very straight East Asian hair that has no natural curl whatsoever. I sometimes put it into French braids overnight and it turns out nice and volumised. After an hour it already starts to drop (like the pics) and then after a few hours it’s flat.

My question - is there a way to keep the waves with volume using some sort of product (available in UK) that doesn’t cause residue bits or make the hair sticky or rock hard? I’ve tried mousse, hairspray and sculpting gel products and none seem to work so I need help! TIA