u/OldNeedlenose

(M27) I’m an artist but I really don’t live like the kind of artist I want to be. I staked my college education on being a prolific creator and while I’m lucky to work part time in broadcasting, I’m hurting pretty bad for a good day job. It doesn’t help that I basically coasted through college. I do still create but not nearly as much as I want to and I find it frustrating that some people are able to work full time and make art on the side while it’s such a challenge for me.

I want to start living the life I want but it feels too late and I just don’t know where to start.

I’m in a tough spot in life, dirt poor and under employed. Everyone I know says my problems stem from a lack of love and respect for myself. I’ve had a hard time with that for as long as I can remember and I tend to let my ego get out of control and resent myself pretty intensely when I encounter a challenge. I hold myself to very unrealistic standards and usually become dysregulated when I fail or am not sure how to meet them. I spend a lot of time looking back on my mistakes and thinking about how I could have avoided making them with all the knowledge I have now. It’s very hard to shut this down whenever I’m alone with my thoughts and it really just makes me miserable and encourages inaction. I want to get over myself and just be the person I want to be but I need help fighting the voice in my head that’s says it’s too late and I’ll always be a burden and a loser.

I’m a generally anxious person and I end up letting my anxiety take the wheel a lot. I typically retreat to my phone and spend hours scrolling. It’s obviously not helping and I’ve found that while it was potent a little while ago, going for runs and lifting has been less effective. I’m unpleasant to be around and afraid of taking action when I get anxious and I’m sick of running away like this to feel in control of my life.

I work part-time in the sports broadcasting department and my current day job is a low paid scam. I’ve been considering trying for an admin/office job as a way to escape underemployment. My degree is in English/Communications and I know a guy who has a similar background who was able to get a pretty decent office job at another college (granted it wasn’t Ivy League).

I’d love something that would let me keep doing what i already do at Brown I just can’t keep doing this paycheck to paycheck thing.

M27 Connecticut BA in English and Communications. Like a lot of other people I’m dealing with underemployment. My goal is to be a screenwriter/work on film sets as a union grip/gaffer but speaking with some of the people I’ve met who get to do that for work they’ve told me it’s rare to do that full time. Im substitute teaching right now while working as a camera operator and AV technician on the side. I make good enough money from my side jobs but the pay from subbing is dogshit. I’m about to go to grad school to become a full on high school teacher but I’d rather find a better day job now before I commit to more schooling. I’ve tried looking at bartending but I can’t find a decent job that’ll train me up. I’ve also looked at the trades but can’t find an affordable way to get in as a lot of apprenticeships pay peanuts or require trade school. I’m also interested in maybe getting an IT certificate since I’ve heard of people with my background doing well with those.

If anyone has any advice on how I can stop spinning my wheels here I’m all ears.

M27 Connecticut BA in English and Communications. Like a lot of other people I’m dealing with underemployment. My goal is to be a screenwriter/work on film sets as a union grip/gaffer but speaking with some of the people I’ve met who get to do that for work they’ve told me it’s rare to do that full time. Im substitute teaching right now while working as a camera operator and AV technician on the side. I make good enough money from my side jobs but the pay from subbing is dogshit. I’m about to go to grad school to become a full on high school teacher but I’d rather find a better day job now before I commit to more schooling. I’ve tried looking at bartending but I can’t find a decent job that’ll train me up. I’ve also looked at the trades but can’t find an affordable way to get in as a lot of apprenticeships pay peanuts or require trade school. I’m also interested in maybe getting an IT certificate since I’ve heard of people with my background doing well with those.

If anyone has any advice on how I can stop spinning my wheels here I’m all ears.

M27 Connecticut BA in English and Communications. Like a lot of other people I’m dealing with underemployment. My goal is to be a screenwriter/work on film sets as a union grip/gaffer but speaking with some of the people I’ve met who get to do that for work they’ve told me it’s rare to do that full time. Im substitute teaching right now while working as a camera operator and AV technician on the side. I make good enough money from my side jobs but the pay from subbing is dogshit. I’m about to go to grad school to become a full on high school teacher but I’d rather find a better day job now before I commit to more schooling. I’ve tried looking at bartending but I can’t find a decent job that’ll train me up. I’ve also looked at the trades but can’t find an affordable way to get in as a lot of apprenticeships pay peanuts or require trade school. I’m also interested in maybe getting an IT certificate since I’ve heard of people with my background doing well with those.

If anyone has any advice on how I can stop spinning my wheels here I’m all ears.

(I’ll be crossposting this to r/banking but I don’t have enough karma to post there yet.) I live in Connecticut and am looking for a bank that offers free or comparatively cheap checking, doesn’t charge too much or ideally anything for account fees, and is fairly easy to find nationwide or at least in New England. I don’t really love banking with Bank of America and they’ve closed both of the locations that were a reasonable distance from me. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.