Cig for breakfast and the gun that didn't go off.
Sup, guys, all i got is a cig and some water. But yeah, I've been in such a dark place for years now. i dont know how it's gotten this badly. Long story short, im depressed and this is my second attempt at just freeing myself from my own mind and of this world, i tried to shoot myself in the head with gun my dad illegally owns, it didnt fire, probably because of the rust that built up, or maybe just because I'm lucky i guess.
I dont know what to do, I've just been sitting at the edge of my bed, rethinking everything I've ever done in my life, and just thinking "fuck what a shitty life I've lived" my emotions pile up on me, and im the type to bottle up my emotions so badly that when i feel like shit i feel like SHIT.
Will i ever get to be something, or will i just stay as this person who has nothing special about them in any sort of way? I dont even know anymore.