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I want to know if there are other people who have violent thoughts and impulses. I mean random thoughts like hitting someone out of the blue or doing something out of the ordinary
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Hi, I really need some advice. For the past 6 months I’ve been dealing with intrusive violent thoughts and urges. At the beginning I had very severe anxiety, and it seemed similar to harm OCD, but lately I’ve started to wonder if it could be something like intrusive homicidal ideation or something else.
These thoughts are present almost every day, from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep. They often involve vivid mental images of harm, which feel very distressing and hard to control.
The main focus is my mother, who I love very much. For example, today while sitting next to her in the car, I suddenly had a very strong intrusive urge to pull the steering wheel, which scared me but it feel so intense .
I feel very anxious and confused about what this means. I also get very uncomfortable being around knives when someone is nearby because it triggers impulses and intrusive thoughts.
It feels very real, and I’m struggling to understand what it's happening with me . (I'm 17,F). I feel like I'll never escape, that I'll give in and end up in prison.