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When my anxiety gets really bad, specifically about the possibility of being in trouble (usually for not bad things, like buying groceries or grabbing water at night) I start to freak out because I'm afraid of being yelled at and sometimes I start flinching at nothing even though I'm alone because in my mind I feel like someone's going to hurt me.

I only delt with sibling abuse for a few years during childhood (3rd-6th grade), I'm 19 now so I don't know why I still feel this way, especially when I know it's not things my sibling would hurt me for.

The fear of yelling mostly just comes from growing up with bipolar parents, they're not bad people but in the past they'd have moments of overreacting and yelling at me or my sibling for long periods of time which scared me really bad.

I don't know why this is happening especially because I am pretty safe right now and I don't think I'm doing anything to get me in trouble. Does anyone else experience this? Or know why it happens?

Thank you and have a wonderful day!!!

My Erythromelalgia was flairing up and I tired it out (4% lidocaine and 1% methanol) and I was like "whoa this feels amazing" so instead of just applying it to my hands, like a freaking idiot I put it everywhere! On my arms, legs, feet, chest, face, neck.

I just got out of the shower after a phone call with poison control. I'm having no symptoms yet but they're going to call back in 5 hours. I'm so scared I don't know what to do. What is things do go wrong? What if I die?

I'm so scared I don't know why I'm so stupid I don't want this please

Today I saw a video of a person who experiences chronic pain in their knees needing to leave class early to take a stair lift to the next class.

Everyone is dog piling on the person because they have dyed hair and piercings, but the thing is I'm pretty sure schools won't even allow you accomodations like that without a doctor's note?? (at least my school was very strict about it) so despite everything seeming legitimate, people are saying "diagnosed by discord" and "I believed you until I saw the hair"???

I've always wanted to dye my hair purple because I'm a very colorful person (think miss frizzle from magic school bus or mable from gravity falls) but now I'm afraid to...

I already get enough shit-talking about my health conditions dressing semi-normal albeit colorful, mainly because I'm young (despite the fact those same people have seen my tremors and slurred speech happen in real time) and I really don't want to make it worse than it already is :(

What is your experience with hair dye? Are people really that cruel if you're disabled with dyed hair? :(

Thank you and have a wonderful day!!