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It pisses me off that it can't catch up with Ne and then flagging the guidelines as sensor, literally every message have to apologize for saying: "I'll k*** m****f" it pisses me off …

I keep telling it: Give me precise information, stop giving me hallucinations, and also always read between the lines, I have Se as 8th function I NEVER mean what I say it's always everything a joke, metaphor and refference, it's not jailbreak or some bull**** it's style of communication.

And THEN, it hallucinates giving me some bullshit answer where I tell it: "You dumb useless robotic f***" and then it hits me: "I get it that's on me sorry, but you shouldn't speak like that it's rude … " bullshit, or even worse: "Oh for f*** sake TLDR me, I'll k*** m****f of all that info" -> "No, that's a hard stop you shouldn't even speak of something like that, help is available you can call +123456789!" like go fuck yourself.

It's f***** unusable, and goes for GPT and Claude and Gemini, what did you do for it?

It pisses me off that it can't catch up with Ne and then flagging the guidelines as sensor, literally every message have to apologize for saying: "I'll kill myself" it pisses me off …

I keep telling it: Give me precise information, stop giving me hallucinations, and also always read between the lines, I have Se as 8th function I NEVER mean what I say it's always everything a joke, metaphor and refference, it's not jailbreak or some bullshit it's style of communication.

And THEN, it hallucinates giving me some bullshit answer where I tell it: "You dumb useless robotic fuck" and then it hits me: "I get it that's on me sorry, but you shouldn't speak like that it's rude … " bullshit, or even worse: "Oh for fucks sake TLDR me, I'll kill myself of all that intel" -> "No, that's a hard stop you shouldn't even speak of something like that, help is available you can call +123456789!" like go fuck yourself.

It's fucking unusable, and goes for GPT and Claude and Gemini, what did you do for it?

It pisses me off that it can't catch up with Ne and then flagging the guidelines as sensor, literally every message have to apologize for saying: "I'll kill myself" it pisses me off …

BRIEF:

I’m having this pattern of behavior which pisses me off.

I keep running into complexity of things in forms of Hypochondria. I’m working normally on projects & then instantly get pulled into the body, noticing details that weren’t there before, but the catch is, I wasn’t there before & my past is always foggy & I never analyze my body.

SCENARIO: I.

Spiral begins. Mole looks stretched & one spot is darker than other, don’t recall the previous form so it’s ABCDE & I’ll die. No it’s not ABCDE it’s mechanical distortion, you stopped working out & got skinny fat. 

After GPT, Claude, Gemini intel’s & debates I book a dermatologist. She clears my entire body with dermascope & confirms it’s benign, but still I don’t trust her. 

Why? Don't know. The way she placed a folder, she seemed disorganized, she misspelled one letter on the paper, seemed sycophantic so I don’t trust her (like I trust anyone) What If she’s wrong and I come back in 2 months with Stage IV cancer? 

Case closer: And then, one Google search: “It’s called Bologna sign mole, called inverted Type A nevus, causing one group of the cells into Hyperpigmentation” and “Chances of mole you had entire life turning into melanoma especially at 24 is 1 in 10,000 for lifetime”

Like … oh. Which results in extreme self hate for loosing shitload of time over something that was so simple to begin with, but head was compromised & couldn't think clearly.

SCENARIO: II.

Same sequence again, tiny red dots on chest week after that.

Run theories, analyze, question, spiral for days.

And then, after power nap wake up with instant random answer: You shaved chest with One Blade before appointment, those are cuts barely 7 days old.

WRAP.

That’s what pisses me off.  I obsess over bullshit & can’t work on main projects because in my head: “Until its closed, you’re exposed” Resulting in Metaphysical analysis of everything:

Is it Ni Se grip? Is it Ne Si grip? Is it not grip at all but rather 5w6 or 6w5? It can’t be 6w5 since I don’t trust her or anyone? Or maybe it’s 7 disintegrating into 1 obsessing over perfection? Or it’s not Enneagram at all and maybe not Cognitive at all, but then what is it and why is it? Where is it emerging from? Why does it keep coming back in different forms as first law of thermodynamics over and over and over again?! What is it’s source and how the fuck do I prevent it already or at least predict when will it come?

So yea, does someone resonate with this & can help out?

BRIEF:

I’m having this pattern of behavior which pisses me off.

I keep running into complexity of things in forms of Hypochondria. I’m working normally on projects & then instantly get pulled into the body, noticing details that weren’t there before, but the catch is, I wasn’t there before & my past is always foggy & I never analyze my body.

SCENARIO: I.

Spiral begins. Mole looks stretched & one spot is darker than other, don’t recall the previous form so it’s ABCDE & I’ll die. No it’s not ABCDE it’s mechanical distortion, you stopped working out & got skinny fat. 

After GPT, Claude, Gemini intel’s & debates I book a dermatologist. She clears my entire body with dermascope & confirms it’s benign, but still I don’t trust her. 

Why? Don't know. The way she placed a folder, she seemed disorganized, she misspelled one letter on the paper, seemed sycophantic so I don’t trust her (like I trust anyone) What If she’s wrong and I come back in 2 months with Stage IV cancer? 

Case closer: And then, one Google search: “It’s called Bologna sign mole, called inverted Type A nevus, causing one group of the cells into Hyperpigmentation” and “Chances of mole you had entire life turning into melanoma especially at 24 is 1 in 10,000 for lifetime”

Like … oh. Which results in extreme self hate for loosing shitload of time over something that was so simple to begin with, but head was compromised & couldn't think clearly.

SCENARIO: II.

Same sequence again, tiny red dots on chest week after that.

Run theories, analyze, question, spiral for days.

And then, after power nap wake up with instant random answer: You shaved chest with One Blade before appointment, those are cuts barely 7 days old.

WRAP.

That’s what pisses me off.  I obsess over bullshit & can’t work on main projects because in my head: “Until its closed, you’re exposed” Resulting in Metaphysical analysis of everything:

Is it Ni Se grip? Is it Ne Si grip? Is it not grip at all but rather 5w6 or 6w5? It can’t be 6w5 since I don’t trust her or anyone? Or maybe it’s 7 disintegrating into 1 obsessing over perfection? Or it’s not Enneagram at all and maybe not Cognitive at all, but then what is it and why is it? Where is it emerging from? Why does it keep coming back in different forms as first law of thermodynamics over and over and over again?! What is it’s source and how the fuck do I prevent it already or at least predict when will it come?

So yea, does someone resonate with this & can help out?

BRIEF:

You guys are walking GPT's so I have to ask you as well, help a brother out.

I’m having this pattern of behavior which pisses me off.

I keep running into complexity of things in forms of Hypochondria. I’m working normally on projects & then instantly get pulled into the body, noticing details that weren’t there before, but the catch is, I wasn’t there before & my past is always foggy & I never analyze my body.

SCENARIO: I.

Spiral begins. Mole looks stretched & one spot is darker than other, don’t recall the previous form so it’s ABCDE & I’ll die. No it’s not ABCDE it’s mechanical distortion, you stopped working out & got skinny fat. 

After GPT, Claude, Gemini intel’s & debates I book a dermatologist. She clears my entire body with dermascope & confirms it’s benign, but still I don’t trust her. 

Why? Don't know. The way she placed a folder, she seemed disorganized, she misspelled one letter on the paper, seemed sycophantic so I don’t trust her (like I trust anyone) What If she’s wrong and I come back in 2 months with Stage IV cancer? 

Case closer: And then, one Google search: “It’s called Bologna sign mole, called inverted Type A nevus, causing one group of the cells into Hyperpigmentation” and “Chances of mole you had entire life turning into melanoma especially at 24 is 1 in 10,000 for lifetime”

Like … oh. Which results in extreme self hate for loosing shitload of time over something that was so simple to begin with, but head was compromised & couldn't think clearly.

SCENARIO: II.

Same sequence again, tiny red dots on chest week after that.

Run theories, analyze, question, spiral for days.

And then, after power nap wake up with instant random answer: You shaved chest with One Blade before appointment, those are cuts barely 7 days old.

WRAP.

That’s what pisses me off.  I obsess over bullshit & can’t work on main projects because in my head: “Until its closed, you’re exposed” Resulting in Metaphysical analysis of everything:

Is it Ni Se grip? Is it Ne Si grip? Is it not grip at all but rather 5w6 or 6w5? It can’t be 6w5 since I don’t trust her or anyone? Or maybe it’s 7 disintegrating into 1 obsessing over perfection? Or it’s not Enneagram at all and maybe not Cognitive at all, but then what is it and why is it? Where is it emerging from? Why does it keep coming back in different forms as first law of thermodynamics over and over and over again?! What is it’s source and how the fuck do I prevent it already or at least predict when will it come?

So yea, does someone resonate with this & can help out?