u/No_Wrangler_2674

I dont know.. she is objectively beautiful but just her nature and insecurities completely have put me off over time.

Now I dont feel attracted to her at all. shes starting to notice it and any discussion always backfires so I have resorted to just avoiding arguments and doing my part.

I don't have the energy anymore, I don't know what to do honestly

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I have many things to blame on myself but right now, the more she pesters me the more dead I feel.

I never cared about history and ignored much of it.

I did give a famous youtube series a shot but to keep all of that in your mind is near impossible and a full time job.

Which one did you actually like?

Did you end up learning it well enough that you don't have to keep going back to it?

How do you remember all the names and events?

PS. I'm fed up of these bots deleting posts. Its hard to engage with the group if you can't ask a basic question.

Salams everyone.

I notice there are a lot of online classes for women but almost none for men here. How did you learn your tajweed?