u/No_Set_5576

I’m a 22 year old. Today I went to the urologist at fist to be put onto trt which he has me on now and because I’ve been having dull achey pains in the left side of my penis for a little while. I had also noticed my penis has sorta been laying to the left while flaccid so much so that I would piss sorta to the left. The initial concern was that I had peyronies but towards the head of the penis. I had him check me out he felt me up but he said he only felt something more towards the base of the penis and said that it could possibly be peyronies. What makes this so hard is one I’m 22 and my penis is buried. On top of that I already have major issues with my size as far as girth goes but still also with length as well. I was told to monitor it and see what happens in the next few months I’m pretty scared tbh and I don’t know what to think or what to do.

This is just me looking for advice maybe encouragement just anything. My penis has always been something that has destroyed my confidence. It’s maybe 5.5 inches on a good day with bone pressed and it’s not very thick and I also have a very large fat pad. I’ve never been with a woman who really likes it to me it’s always just seems like they tolerate it and don’t really feel anything. I want to say I almost exclusively get women off with my tongue and fingers and typically know what I’m doing as far as that goes. I want to be lusted over and treated like it’s the best they’ve had or whatever and It just seems like that life will never be for me and it’s heartbreaking. I’ve never been able to get a woman off using my penis and not only that I’ve never even heard a woman moan using my penis or move her hips around or really anything that indicates she likes it. I’ve never had compliments on it from the women I’ve slept with I’ve never had encouragement. Over all it just seems like I’m never gonna be lusted over or loved fully because of it and I really don’t know what to do anymore because this is seriously killing me im in therapy for how bad my confidence and self worth is and it’s all because of how badly I hate my size and wish it would change.