I want to top, my partner wants me to top, but I feel very awkward about it. Does anyone have any advice on how to get over the awkwardness? My partner is very good about communicating what he wants, so the issue is solely with me feeling weird. I think it's a combination of just being new to it and then also dysphoria over the fact that I have to use a prosthetic to be able to top.
Okay this could totally just be a random fluke and not actually mean anything significant, but I'm wondering if anyone knows anything about this or has had a similar experience.
I changed my name several months ago. Once I got my court orders, I made an appointment with social security, gave them my documents, and they changed my name in their system and ordered a new card for me. I went away on a two week trip and asked my partner to let me know when the new card showed up, but it never did. I thought it might be because of the partial shutdown that is affecting various government agencies, so I gave it a bit more time before calling. Eventually I reached out to my local office, and they told me that my card was "suppressed", and would not really explain exactly what that meant. Basically, it was ordered by my local office but the main social security office refused to send it. They had no idea why. BUT my name change was processed in their system and I was luckily able to get a new driver's license without the card. The only solution the social security person had for me was attempt to order a replacement myself online or come in for a new appointment, but they are booked out for months at every office near me. I tried to order a new one online but am having issues with the identity verification service they use, likely because my name change is still fresh. So I will probably have to wait months to get a new card, and I can't even be sure it will show up this time. The person I talked to asked me if I "really need the card". Like, yes??? I want to have proper documentation for myself. I'm just glad I was able to get my new driver's license, because that has allowed me to update most other things I need to so far.