u/No-Delivery8138

Good morning girls! I didn't know what flair to pick since I'm just looking to make friends.

Welcome to Saturday morning, hope you all had a lovely Friday. I know i did, spent it alone enjoying a nice fire. I relish in alone time anymore. I used to be so social and then i learned it was me aiming to avoid contending with myself.

I used to love the party life, had fomo so bad. But spending Friday night alone felt so good to me and i truly enjoyed my little fire. Only thing that would've been nicer was some down to earth girls to chat with IRL. A couple sweet girls slid into my Dm's & we chatted about music, not being tech savvy lol unexpectedly what types of underwear were prefer which turned into a fun conversation in itself lol

Hanes boyfriend panties are the best panties, promise lol

But I'm yeah I guess I'm looking for friends and it was so fun to have such silly fun conversations last night. So let's have a sweet morning chat. Comment about your night, hobbies, or slide into my Dm's ☺️

What does your Saturday look like?

I'm craving pancakes like a mad woman this morning. I never used to like pancakes really either. But these days it's like I can't get enough of them.

Has anyone else had this happen to them?

Bananas are the same way for me. I loved them as a kid but went through a couple decades where i rarely had them.

I'm all snuggled up in bed and debating trying a few more winks of sleep. Tell me about your weekend thus far or slide into my Dm's for more silliness

I only got 4-5 hrs of sleep and I'm telling you lovely girlies because I've been loving bring back in with a lesbian crowd again after so many years away.

Tell me about what you got up to last night and your plans for the weekend!

I'm all snuggled up in bed, so slide in my Dm's if you want to chat. Comments here are also cool.

I don't think I can attach pictures to posts here. I'm so not tech savvy lol

Having but if time to myself and it's nice been a while. Feeling social and wanting to chat with cool people.

Slide into my dm's, if you dare. no weirdos & no creeps. I block without notice.

I just feel so helpless

19 years of my life with her...

Tldr: 19 years ago I met Cassandra in a chatroom. We had an intense on-and-off situationship for 7 years, romantic and flirty when it was on, sweetly charged even when platonic — but we never met in real life. We hurt each other (she hid a 2-year relationship with another girl; I hurt her too). Life happened, I met my current partner of 12+ years, and things faded. Last year, during her divorce, she suddenly texted me after 11 years of silence, said she'd always wondered about "us," pushed to meet, flirted after my boundary, and then ghosted. It crushed me. I still occasionally check her profile and wonder "what if," but I know she's selfish and in love with the rush, not with anything real. I probably dodged a bullet.

we met before technology became what is today. we wrote letters to one another, shared our romantic fantasies of each other. told each other ILY and thought we meant it. maybe we did, but who knows when we never got to meet. you hurt me, I hurt you, we became friends again. our friendship was romantically charged underneath it all and i nearly came to you when you were stationed overseas. we were so close to meeting, after all these years. I was so excited but so calm and you were hiding your excitement. we were platonic at that time but we both knew once IRL it would have so much deep and woven romance between us if it could be as real as we had hoped. i don't think we will ever get another chance in life like we had then and I'm sad. life just simply happened and the moment slipped away from us. you're not back home, stationed where you grew up and reached out to me out of the blue. it was scary, exciting and hurtful. i feel back in love with you so hard. it flipped my world upside down. a year later I'm finally starting to feel I'm healing again. i want to yell at you for being so selfish, yet again, but it's no use. it will just fall on deaf ears. you told me I'm your first love which I believe you for that. but you're still just too self absorbed and forever crushing on having an exciting new crush. you couldn't even make it passed the seven year itch with your wife before divorcing her on flimsy grounds of "I'll never be enough for her", despite her being the sweetest girl to you. she truly lives you, you big jerk and you divorced her. perhaps i dodged a bullet by being unable to meet you, all these years later.

sincerely...

a girl who still wonders if there could have ever been an "us"

Ugh 😩

Tldr: 19 years ago I met Cassandra in a chatroom. We had an intense on-and-off situationship for 7 years, romantic and flirty when it was on, sweetly charged even when platonic — but we never met in real life. We hurt each other (she hid a 2-year relationship with another girl; I hurt her too). Life happened, I met my current partner of 12+ years, and things faded. Last year, during her divorce, she suddenly texted me after 11 years of silence, said she'd always wondered about "us," pushed to meet, flirted after my boundary, and then ghosted. It crushed me. I still occasionally check her profile and wonder "what if," but I know she's selfish and in love with the rush, not with anything real. I probably dodged a bullet.

we met before technology became what is today. we wrote letters to one another, shared our romantic fantasies of each other. told each other ILY and thought we meant it. maybe we did, but who knows when we never got to meet. you hurt me, I hurt you, we became friends again. our friendship was romantically charged underneath it all and i nearly came to you when you were stationed overseas. we were so close to meeting, after all these years. I was so excited but so calm and you were hiding your excitement. we were platonic at that time but we both knew once IRL it would have so much deep and woven romance between us if it could be as real as we had hoped. i don't think we will ever get another chance in life like we had then and I'm sad. life just simply happened and the moment slipped away from us. you're not back home, stationed where you grew up and reached out to me out of the blue. it was scary, exciting and hurtful. i fell back in love with you so hard. it flipped my world upside down.

A year later I'm finally starting to feel I'm healing again. i want to yell at you for being so selfish, yet again, but it's no use. it will just fall on deaf ears. you told me I'm your first love which I believe you for that. but you're still just too self absorbed and forever crushing on having an exciting new crush. you couldn't even make it passed the seven year itch with your wife before divorcing her on flimsy grounds of "I'll never be enough for her", despite her being the sweetest girl to you. She truly loves you, you big jerk and you divorced her. perhaps i dodged a bullet by being unable to meet you, all these years later.

sincerely...

a girl who still wonders if there could have ever been an "us"

19 years of my life with her...

Tldr: 19 years ago I met Cassandra in a chatroom. We had an intense on-and-off situationship for 7 years, romantic and flirty when it was on, sweetly charged even when platonic — but we never met in real life. We hurt each other (she hid a 2-year relationship with another girl; I hurt her too). Life happened, I met my current partner of 12+ years, and things faded. Last year, during her divorce, she suddenly texted me after 11 years of silence, said she'd always wondered about "us," pushed to meet, flirted after my boundary, and then ghosted. It crushed me. I still occasionally check her profile and wonder "what if," but I know she's selfish and in love with the rush, not with anything real. I probably dodged a bullet.

we met before technology became what is today. we wrote letters to one another, shared our romantic fantasies of each other. told each other ILY and thought we meant it. maybe we did, but who knows when we never got to meet. you hurt me, I hurt you, we became friends again. our friendship was romantically charged underneath it all and i nearly came to you when you were stationed overseas. we were so close to meeting, after all these years. I was so excited but so calm and you were hiding your excitement. we were platonic at that time but we both knew once IRL it would have so much deep and woven romance between us if it could be as real as we had hoped. i don't think we will ever get another chance in life like we had then and I'm sad. life just simply happened and the moment slipped away from us. you're not back home, stationed where you grew up and reached out to me out of the blue. it was scary, exciting and hurtful. i feel back in love with you so hard. it flipped my world upside down. a year later I'm finally starting to feel I'm healing again. i want to yell at you for being so selfish, yet again, but it's no use. it will just fall on deaf ears. you told me I'm your first love which I believe you for that. but you're still just too self absorbed and forever crushing on having an exciting new crush. you couldn't even make it passed the seven year itch with your wife before divorcing her on flimsy grounds of "I'll never be enough for her", despite her being the sweetest girl to you. she truly lives you, you big jerk and you divorced her. perhaps i dodged a bullet by being unable to meet you, all these years later.

sincerely...

a girl who still wonders if there could have ever been an "us"

Tldr: 19 years ago I met Cassandra in a chatroom. We had an intense on-and-off situationship for \~7 years — romantic and flirty when it was on, sweetly charged even when platonic — but we never met in real life. We hurt each other (she hid a 2-year relationship with another girl; I hurt her too). Life happened, I met my current partner of 12+ years, and things faded. Last year, during her divorce, she suddenly texted me after 11 years of silence, said she'd always wondered about "us," pushed to meet, flirted after my boundary, and then ghosted. It crushed me. I still occasionally check her profile and wonder "what if," but I know she's selfish and in love with the rush, not with anything real. I probably dodged a bullet.

we met before technology became what is today. we wrote letters to one another, shared our romantic fantasies of each other. told each other ILY and thought we meant it. maybe we did, but who knows when we never got to meet. you hurt me, I hurt you, we became friends again. our friendship was romantically charged underneath it all and i nearly came to you when you were stationed overseas. we were so close to meeting, after all these years. I was so excited but so calm and you were hiding your excitement. we were platonic at that time but we both knew once IRL it would have so much deep and woven romance between us if it could be as real as we had hoped. i don't think we will ever get another chance in life like we had then and I'm sad. life just simply happened and the moment slipped away from us. you're not back home, stationed where you grew up and reached out to me out of the blue. it was scary, exciting and hurtful. i feel back in love with you so hard. it flipped my world upside down. a year later I'm finally starting to feel I'm healing again. i want to yell at you for being so selfish, yet again, but it's no use. it will just fall on deaf ears. you told me I'm your first love which I believe you for that. but you're still just too self absorbed and forever crushing on having an exciting new crush. you couldn't even make it passed the seven year itch with your wife before divorcing her on flimsy grounds of "I'll never be enough for her", despite her being the sweetest girl to you. she truly lives you, you big jerk and you divorced her. perhaps i dodged a bullet by being unable to meet you, all these years later.

sincerely...

a girl who still wonders if there could have ever been an "us"

Could it have been different had we met?

19 years ago I met Cassandra in a chatroom. We had a 7-year on-and-off situationship — romantic and flirty when it was on, sweetly charged even when platonic — but we never met IRL. She credits me with helping her realize she's a lesbian, and considers me her first love. We hurt each other, then drifted. I’ve been with my current partner for over a decade. Last year Cassandra reached out during her divorce after 11 years of silence between us, said she’d always wondered about “us,” ignored my relationship, flirted, and then ghosted. It crushed me. I still occasionally check her profile even though I know she’s selfish and I’d never be enough for her. Just trying to move on from a 19-year “almost.”