Mac n cheese + dino nuggets + peas
Costco hotdog... Deconstructed 😂 plus oranges
Quinoa+yogurt (he did not like) + chicken + broccoli (the chicken and broccoli was a win)
Bean and cheese taquitos + cucumber + babybell cheese
My one year old is physically delayed, we do PT twice a month with him, and also he is not gaining enough weight, so working with the dietician and pediatrician on this. of course PT works best when we can do 20 min exercises with him per day, and the nutrition thing is all day every day (trying to get him to eat and drink enough). Right now I am battling with my mental health, I had a little crisis for a few days, I am recovering from that, the meds right now I feel super exhausted, what I'm trying to say is how do I do all these things for my toddler (PT, nutrition, as well as keeping him calm he is dysregulated easily) while I am fighting in my mind for stability with very little energy at the moment? At my peak energy and mood I could do it all!! And now I am struggling just to plan an outing to the park and store with him. Has anybody gone through this and made it through?
I'm terrified. Terrified of myself and my thoughts and my mind. I'm pretty sure what happened the last week was a side effect of a medication which I am stopping tomorrow (have to wait out 12 hour half life). I stupidly stupidly made my struggles with the depressive aspect public (I am generally a private person). I'm scared I lost all my friends. I'm scared people are afraid of me. I'm scared it's going to happen again. I've never felt so disconnected and separated and confused in my life. I can't really function right now I'm just waiting for these meds to clear out my system and hoping hoping hoping my sanity returns. Please don't attack me I am already so fragile but mostly I'm afraid for my sweet little boy. He's safe now in daycare. He needs his mom back. I'm hysterically crying right now I just feel like I've failed everyone especially the most important person in my life.