u/New_Landscape_2968

basically the title. i discovered shifting in 2020/2021, and i was attempting almost every night (with a couple breaks in between ofc) up until around 2024 where i gave up from losing motivation and being frustrated. BUT, i did have a very weird attempt where i think i almost shifted? it happened around 2022, and i was really tired so my mind was wandering while i was attempting to shift. i started visualizing random things about the day subconsciously, and then it slowly turned into like a frankenstein world where i was with my friend (i hung out with her that day) in some random place (i have no idea how else to explain it, but tldr my brain was really tired/half asleep that night lol) point is, i think i almost shifted to that place, but im not entirely sure what happened. i remember feeling like my consciousness was being sucked out if my body and i saw flashing lights, and then i told myself i didn’t even wanna go there and i woke up completely after that.

so thats the closest i’ve ever been to shifting (at least i think? still don’t know what that was to this day), but it was so long ago that i just felt like i wasn’t capable of truly succeeding. which is my biggest problem i think. i believed in shifting, but i never believed in my capability of succeeding (and i suspect theres more limiting beliefs i don’t even know that i have, and i have no idea how to find them). the more failed attempts, the more the feeling snowballed into frustration for myself and my ability to shift, since i kept proving myself right by failing.

i also tried SOO many other methods. lucid dreaming, astral projection, meditation, sleep paralysis, but out of that entire list i’ve only ever been able to meditate. sleep paralysis and lucid dreaming are literally regular things too, so i don’t know why im not capable of doing them (i’ve also genuinely never had sleep paralysis in my whole life, i think its bc my ADHD makes me move around all night but im not sure). also if that attempt i mentioned earlier WAS an almost-successful attempt, then it should motivate me but it honestly doesn’t.

so, i’ve had a longg break from shifting and right now im at a point where im willing to try again. i think my biggest problem is my mindset and how i negatively view all of this, so ive been manifesting a different mindset for a week now and i hope it helps me at least a little bit. i’m a great manifester now, so i want to use that to my advantage but idk if itll work in terms of shifting. i think im in a good spot to try again, but i wanted to come on here, and explain my journey to gain some insight. what is everyone’s thoughts on how i should proceed rn?

sorry this is so long im a terrible yapper

basically the title. i discovered shifting in 2020/2021, and i was attempting almost every night (with a couple breaks in between ofc) up until around 2024 where i gave up from losing motivation and being frustrated. BUT, i did have a very weird attempt where i think i almost shifted? it happened around 2022, and i was really tired so my mind was wandering while i was attempting to shift. i started visualizing random things about the day subconsciously, and then it slowly turned into like a frankenstein world where i was with my friend (i hung out with her that day) in some random place (i have no idea how else to explain it, but tldr my brain was really tired/half asleep that night lol) point is, i think i almost shifted to that place, but im not entirely sure what happened. i remember feeling like my consciousness was being sucked out if my body and i saw flashing lights, and then i told myself i didn’t even wanna go there and i woke up completely after that.

so thats the closest i’ve ever been to shifting (at least i think? still don’t know what that was to this day), but it was so long ago that i just felt like i wasn’t capable of truly succeeding. which is my biggest problem i think. i believed in shifting, but i never believed in my capability of succeeding (and i suspect theres more limiting beliefs i don’t even know that i have, and i have no idea how to find them). the more failed attempts, the more the feeling snowballed into frustration for myself and my ability to shift, since i kept proving myself right by failing.

i also tried SOO many other methods. lucid dreaming, astral projection, meditation, sleep paralysis, but out of that entire list i’ve only ever been able to meditate. sleep paralysis and lucid dreaming are literally regular things too, so i don’t know why im not capable of doing them (i’ve also genuinely never had sleep paralysis in my whole life, i think its bc my ADHD makes me move around all night but im not sure). also if that attempt i mentioned earlier WAS an almost-successful attempt, then it should motivate me but it honestly doesn’t.

so, i’ve had a longg break from shifting and right now im at a point where im willing to try again. i think my biggest problem is my mindset and how i negatively view all of this, so ive been manifesting a different mindset for a week now and i hope it helps me at least a little bit. i’m a great manifester now, so i want to use that to my advantage but idk if itll work in terms of shifting. i think im in a good spot to try again, but i wanted to come on here, and explain my journey to gain some insight. what is everyone’s thoughts on how i should proceed rn?

sorry this is so long im a terrible yapper

i’ve been very occasionally meditating every night since around 2021. i haven’t tried to make it a big habit, i’ve only ever done it when i felt like it or remembered which is probably why i haven’t gotten anything out of it. but recently i told myself i’d start meditating often so i can actually understand and master it, because i feel like i haven’t successfully, peacefully meditated this entire time. every session kinda looks like this: i tell myself that i should be observing my thoughts, and set the intention. i do pretty well for ~45 seconds or so, and then eventually i get lost in a thought. i never realize when it happens unless i’m lucky enough to catch myself. if i don’t realize, i end up in a random thought chain that takes me through every topic and event that’s happened throughout the day or even my entire life. i just feel like my mind is constantly doing a million things all the time and that im lost in the ocean of it all. i really try to understand that i’m “pure awareness” “the observer” that i should “let thoughts pass like clouds”, but no matter what happens i end up forgetting the fact that im meditating and i fall asleep (or if its during the day, i realize that i got lost in my mind 20 minutes later and i get really frustrated with myself to the point where i don’t want to meditate anymore). ive tried meditating when i was really tired after a long day so that maybe i would be too sleepy to have a busy brain but then i’m too half-asleep to remember my goal of meditating or i fall asleep immediately. i also cant meditate for really long periods of time, because my body can’t stay still for long and it gets me out of focus if i move. so i guess i’m lost at this point, i don’t really know what to do. it feels genuinely impossible to meditate, like my brain is broken. im still gonna try consistently but i feel like its useless. if its important, i want to meditate so that i can manifest things with LOA and astral project, but also to just live day-to-day with an easier mind that reacts to situations better/healthier.

also don’t recommend guided meditations, ive tried hundreds of videos and i still somehow tune out their voice/music. i have no idea how my brain even manages to do it man