ADHD and C-PTSD : the worse combo ?
I feel like having ADHD and C-PTSD is one of the worse combo.
First, I've been diagnosed really late, like a few months ago for ADHD, and C-PTSD one month ago.
All my life I thought there was something wrong with me that had no explanation. But I realised, I grew up in a toxic manipulative family, with two narcissistic parents, wanting to control every ounce of my identity. It led to other type of abuses because this environment wrecks the way you view the world and react to bad situations. And I feel like I had PTSD since a very long time, at least 8 years (and i'm 24) and it probably helped hiding my ADHD. And my ADHD also facilitate having PTSD.
What made me realise I have PTSD is simply taking my ADHD meds.
First, I remembered stuff, because I forgot entire parts of my life (like 15 years). Second, I puzzled everything together to realise I've been traumatised since my birth. Third, when I thought my adhd meds weren't working well, it was just my PTSD symptoms becoming visible. I'm always in hyperviligeance, so I get distracted by people near me because I look for a potential threat. Everytime, I think someone is looking at me and judging me. And when I'm on med at home, I get flashbacks so hard that I stop engaging in the tasks I have to do. I don't know if anyone has a similar experience ?
Realising all of this in such a short time is hard and made some of my PTSD symptoms worse. Also because I made the decision to not talk to my family anymore.
And I feel weird, and I think I look weird to people, because in acknowledging all of this, I kind of accepted my weirdness.
For the first time, I can put words on what I have, on all of those psychological breakdowns, all those failures. And I know I can seek help now that I know who I am. But still, I feel alone in my condition. So can you share a few words if you have a similar experience my friend. 🧡