u/New-Quiet8086

I've been considering God, *feeling* God, feeling Him watch me and be with me and "guide" me. I've never once considered Christianity in my entire life, but all of a sudden, right when I'm seeing skeletons, hearing rats in the walls and imagining scenarios of getting abducted am I questioning it all. Now, saying that out loud does make you think it's psychosis, right? But I truly don't know. I'm resonating so much with everything I'm reading about the bible and God Himself. Am I Christian from now on? Can I truly be saved? Everything's so different and I'm so lost.

I'm not sure if this is an autism thing, an ADHD thing, a strictly *me* thing, but I have HORRIBLE object permanence.

Meaning if something is out of sight, it is LITERALLY out of mind. I have to have all my pantry supplies splayed out on the kitchen table, because if it's in a cupboard or stacked on a shelf, I'll forget all about the items I can't see until they gather dust.

I haven't used my wardrobe in years, instead just keeping baskets of clothing in one room to rifle through at any given moment. Even the clothes at the bottom of the baskets are long forgotten because all I can focus on is the ones at the top.

When my dad gets groceries, most of the items remains inside the bags on a bench, so I can focus on them and only them, emptying them.

What is this? I'm moving soon and I'm wondering if I can add anything to my life to help make it a little easier and the house a lot less cluttered.