I genuinely think I’m at the lowest point of my life and don’t know how to cope anymore.
I lost a woman I loved deeply and the family life that came with her. She had kids and I loved them too. It wasn’t just losing a relationship, it feels like I lost a whole future, a home feeling, routine, belonging, and the happiest version of myself.
The worst part is the regret. I was full of worry and overthinking when we were together. I was always anxious it would end instead of relaxing and appreciating what I had. I keep thinking if I’d just calmed down and enjoyed it, we might still be together and happy now. I can’t stop replaying everything and wishing I could take it all back.
She’s moved on and has told me she never wants to see me again. That has hit me harder than anything I’ve ever experienced. I know I need to accept it, but mentally I’m struggling badly.
Outside of that, everything else feels like it’s collapsing too. I nearly lost my job recently after drinking heavily and missing part of a shift. Trust at work feels damaged. I don’t currently have my own place. I’ve got driving/licence issues stressing me out. I feel like I’ve let everyone down, especially the people I loved most.
I miss the small things more than anything: her voice when I came in the door, lying together in bed, being out together and feeling proud she was my partner, feeling like part of a family.
Right now I feel constantly anxious, low, on the verge of tears, unable to concentrate, and like I don’t know where to start fixing my life. It feels like I lost the best version of myself and don’t know if I’ll ever get him back.
I’m posting because I need honest advice from people who’ve been through deep loss, regret, heartbreak, and life falling apart at the same time.
How do you recover when it feels like you’ve lost everything?