i've been in a 5 year relationship (20yoF) i'm now in college, we are long distance now, he has a job in the marines 1,200 miles away. I've recently been catching feelings for my best friends brother who goes to the same college as me and dont know what to do.
Me and my current boyfriend have been dating since middle school/ high school. we have always been inseparable and i love him with my whole heart. he is perfect for me and we talk about marriage a lot once i graduate in two years.
However long distance gets difficult and old with the same conversations constantly and it feels like we’re just in two seperate parts of life. My best friends brother is a year older than me going to school to be an engineer at my college. he is very smart, i find him attractive, and i love his family so much, his mom, dad, and two sisters who i’m very close with. my current boyfriend and i have a lot of problems because his family is insane and it gets hard to deal with. they call me names, say i am manipulative, etc. his mom is on drugs and no dad present, his sisters are evil and possibly a little in love with him??? my best friends brother’s family makes jokes all the time, they know i’ve always had a little crush on him since we were young, and we still talk about it to this day. however recently we have been texting making small talk (him calling me pretty, etc.) and it feels like the small crush feeling is being reciprocated.
i have no idea what to do or if im a terrible person. i’m so curious what this could be like but also love my boyfriend but the distance and family situation gets insufferable sometimes, especially because he gets insecure randomly. I do see a relationship with both of them which is what’s so hard. has anyone else been through a similar situation?? WHAT DO I DO???**TL;DR; : This is a sample summary of the TLDR rule, all things are bold. Is this going the right way?**.