u/Mysterious_Sector310

I have a class, I didnt go to it, I wandered random streets, watching a dirty country, a filthy place, a scummy home, he was speeding, i could've just jumped there, it would've all ended, I would've been dead and satisfied, im scared of death, what if I go to hell, I didnt jump, I thought, I want to cry, but a man cant cry, I wish I got hit, would've been much better, I would finally do what my mom wanted, that I leave her life, im useless, I wish I died

I know this post is useless, im not benefiting anything off of it, im still young, a teen, and nothing in my life is good, my mom wishes she was dead so she doesnt have to raise me, none of my siblings love me, my dad doesnt consider me a man, my entire family considers me a funny guy when im not happy at all, my economy is going down in shambles, its a matter of time before I have to find a home, but with the current state, I just cant, no matter how much I study ill still be a failure and a loser, I cant study, I cant do anything right, my mom wishes even i weren't born, I dont have any friends, absolutely 0, I look weird, I dont like myself, i dont like pain, this is too much, and I already take medicine for some conditions I have, some of its side effects is increasing negativity as a whole, sounds fake, its true.

I wish I was dead, I wish I was dead, I wish I was dead, I am a worthless idiot, I wish I was dead.