Optimistic but loosing hope
Hi all.
I just turned 30 years old a few weeks ago.
I have been addicted to porn ever since graduating high school.
Each year the content would get more intense.
I have even generated my own content through the use of AI.
This is not the life I want for myself.
The shame is wildly intense.
I don’t even pursue relationships as a result.
Last I dated was 2020 and had an interest in a girl in 2024 but this behavior has prevented me from going ALL IN with relationships.
I realize how DEEP this problem is but I also can’t seem to get away from it.
My living environment is also not ideal. Living with my parents and they both can become toxic at moments which I believe has triggered some of these behaviors.
I firmly believe it is the reason i’m not dating, i’m still living at home, and have an intense amount of anxiety that now man should have to deal with.
Just send some encouragement and prayers.
At the end of today, would mark one day clean.
love you guys!