u/MaterialMaybe6864

I’m losing my mind, y’all. I am very obviously Te aux, Fi tert, but either I’m too dumb to understand Si vs. Ni after five years of MBTI typing or other people have conflicting opinions. I’ve tried to bring up specific Ni/Si dom / Ne/Si inf things below. Let me know.

When I think of a memory, it’s a very quick impression, a flash, of the most important info and/or feelings. I hate dwelling on bad memories, and though they’re subconsciously a part of me, I don’t ever ruminate. I’ve never really experienced the late night “oh my god, I shouldn’t have said that.”
When I do something embarrassing/make a mistake, instead of replaying it, I think “oh my god, I’m going to get in trouble / they’re going to hate me for it.”
I get bored of most people because they tend to repeat themselves and stick to the same three topics of discussion. People may be complex internally, but they sure don’t show it. I don’t mind small talk, but it feels vapid once I know a friend well.
I’m a bit superstitious but not religious. It’s moreso that I read Greek mythology too much as a kid and know that hubris leads to things not working out the way you want them to. I’m convinced that downplaying potential good news (grades, job offers, etc) before they happen will make rejection hurt less. (It doesn’t.)
I have a very strong memory, but it’s more for facts than exact moments. None of my memories last more than a few seconds, as though they’re “compressed” into a short timeframe.
I have an eye for aesthetic and the finer things in life. I love art, music, and good food; not analyzing them per se, but just appreciating them. I don’t know music theory, or care about any artist as a person, it’s just “this song is vibey.”
I have a lot of short-term goals but almost no long-term goals other than “be happy.”
I can deal with change if I know it’s coming, but if it’s unexpected I panic.
I’m very comfortable with a disorganized environment, so long as I know where to find everything. My Te is geared more towards meeting deadlines than cleanliness.
As a writer, when I need plot help, I just sit on it until an answer comes out of nowhere. When I need character help, I turn to other books that have similar personalities.
If something happens, I instinctually expect a similar situation to turn out the same. For example, after one short-term relationship turned into lovebombing, I worried for a while that *all* relationships would turn into lovebombing.

Characters I relate to most and why:

Mr. Darcy (INTJ 1w9) - “my good opinion, once lost, is lost forever.” Judgy and holds onto grudges.
Elinor Dashwood (ISTJ 1w9) - “Elinor agreed to it all, for she did not believe he deserved the compliment of rational opposition.” Sees no point in engaging with xxTP philosophizing.
Matilda Wormwood (INTJ 5wX) - very strong sense of justice from a young age. I also spoke up and got abusive teachers fired (though with my parents’ help instead of psychic powers.)
Captain Holt (ISTJ 1w9) - high standards, extremely passive-aggressive grudges. The things he says about Wuntch are identical to what I say about people I hate.
Chihiro Ogino (INFP 6w7) - does NOT want to be involved. Hates change. Leave her (and me) alone to whine into the void.
Marian Paroo (ISTJ 1w2) - very high standards, also unwilling to put up with xxTP bullsh*t.
Specifically the 1990s Wednesday Addams (INTJ 5w4) - this is exactly how I acted at summer camp, minus the arson.

Also unsure about my Ennea- I thought it was 1w9 until recently, when it was suggested it was 5w4. Idk.

Not LLS waitlisting me, an in-state resident, who's at/above their 75th percentiles 😂

UCLA interview WL updates?

Well... what do we make of these results?

I am at my wits' end with USC. Why are they accepting people off the waitlist before my app goes UR? What is going on? It has been almost 4 months and I haven't gotten a decision.

Who else out here still waiting for a decision from USC