got friendzoned
I don’t really know how to deal with it. Lmk
I changed pretty much every standard i had for her. I still think about her like that, but it’s definitely clear i’m not going to be anything more than a friend.
Seems like i’m so desperate for a girl i’ll do anything i can. Kinda bullshit that this is the first girl I *didnt* like for looks and eventually convinced myself that she’s still good looking. She’s definitely not ugly, but she’s definitely different than what my standard was. I like to think it’s a more positive thing for me, but now it kinda sucks that i changed for her and she still just don’t like me. (She doesn’t know about my changing or anything.)
Plus, now what do I do. She still wants to be friends, but this woman’s just gonna make my life worse if she stays in it, worst part is that it’s literally not her fault at all.
It’s quite literally “sorry you were fine but i got completely carried away cause i’m not mature enough for it and now you don’t have friends again.”
I also really want to tell her all this, since it seems it’s going to end anyway, i just don’t want that messy fallout. I really liked talking to her(it’s been about a month now) but mainly because i saw her as an interest, not as a friend, I don’t wanna keep putting myself through it. She also seems like she has no intention to stop talking to me. She’s talked about how she hates making online or even in person friends who end up just getting tired of her and throwing her away. I told her i wouldn’t do that, but that’s exactly what i’m doing now huh, maybe i just don’t wanna be a hypocrite. She told me she has no friends now, and that’s all she wants. Some friends.
I feel bad, i’m feeding into a very negative woman’s hate for socialising, especially after i hyped her up so much. Is it just me? Should i try to mature? Or should i just throw it away and get on with my life normally.
TLDR: Changed my standards, still got friendzoned, don’t know what to do. Lmk.