u/Massive_Tension2

"not all sharks" they say as they push us down down down into the depths of the oceans never to be seen or heard because the ocean is unexplored. As it should be, right?

"Too loud" they say while we are getting dragged to the bottom of the ocean and cannot be heard.

"Are you sure it happened?" They say while standing at the shore watching us actively gasp for air that is being taken.

"Their known for lying" they say while the person bleeds out beside them.

"What were they wearing?" But being dragged to the depths of the ocean doesn't matter about what you're wearing, sure if you wear heavy clothing you'll be dragged faster but you'll still be dragged either way.

"Sharks will be sharks" they say but I was never warned this was shark infested water or else I would have never gone

So I'm a teenager and recently decided to become a pescatarian. I choose pescatarian because I have a very hard time with change especially with food, I enjoy fish and think this is a good first step I am planning on going fully vegan at some point but right now this is what works for me. I was extremely ignorant to the meat industry and how unethical it is, I watched dominion (I don't think that's not the exact name but I cannot remember for the life of me) and immediately decided to start.

I guess my question overall is there HAS to be more ethical ways to do these things, why is it just acceptable to not? I see the argument alot that "we are omnivores" which is fair but we are also literally gods to some of these animals (lack of a better word I'm sorry religious people 🙏🏻🙏🏻) so why is it seemingly impossible to find an ethical way to produce food?

I might just be young and stupid and not understand food in society or whatever but it genuinely confuses and disturbs me. I love animals more than humans in every way, shape, and form. The fact that the abuse that happens so often isn't heavily known breaks my heart.

EDIT: edited my first part of the post because it didn't come across well. And after everyones comments and doing more research I did learn more about fish and am likely going to wean off it even more. I am trying, the judgement isn't as helpful as you might think.

I find birth charts and zodiacs so interesting but I don't know where to start and for the life of me I cannot understand my birth chart except basic shit it gives me 😭.

So pretty much what does this mean? What do you assume about me lol?

I'm bored and extremely anxious sooooo AMA?!

My main kins are, jinx from arcane, Ribbit from TADC, Cyn from Murder drones, and Monika from ddlc!!

DNI if you are a yumeshipper of any of these it makes me uncomfortable 😣. Doubles iwc. Just don't be weird pls 🥲

I'm a teen girl, I have a special interest in dogs and absolutely love my dogs, they are genuinely like my children.

For a bit of context I live with my mom, brother, and 2 dogs (shih Tzu and wheaten terrier)

My wheaten terrier is 8 years old (Sherlock) and for context can be pretty dramatic. we had him since he was a puppy.

My dog sleeps in my mom's room currently because she has a broken ankle (she's okay and is starting to walk on it with a boot again!!!!). Thursday night/super early morning Sherlock was yelping in his sleep. This happened a few times but once my mom was able to calm him down he was fine, we assumed he just had a bad dream or pulled something in his sleep. Thursday morning my mom told me this and since I'm in online school I decided just to keep an eye on his behavior all day. He was slow with walking and it took a bit of coaxing but he was able to walk around well and he pooped and ate normal so we just assumed he might not be feeling good.

Friday morning my mom and brother left for work before I woke up. When I woke up I went into the living room and saw Sherlock sitting and shaking which is very abnormal. Honestly my first thought was " are you just going to do this when mom leaves now?" But he wasn't getting up. At all. At one point I tried to pick him up and he just started scream yelping and almost bit me. I let go and backed away quickly but he was still yelping. Once he calmed down I called my mom and she said she was in a meeting and would call me back. About an hour later Sherlock started panting (it wasn't hot) and I realized he wouldn't turn his face towards me (his left) which is odd because he is a Velcro dog especially when he isn't feeling well and will lick me to ask for pets. I called my mom again and got her to come home to take a look at him. She took one look and said let's go to the vet.

That wasn't all his symptoms but the main ones and his behavior was very odd.

We took him to the vet and although the urgent Care wasn't open at the time, they took him in really fast. The vet ended up telling us that it could be a spinal cord injury, disc injury, meningitis. It could be a lot of different things. She sent us to the emergency vet and he stayed overnight. That leads us to now.

This morning he was checked on by nreoulgy and got an MRI to see if surgery was needed. Surgery is not needed and he's coming home while they get the results back from his spinal tap. They aren't sure what it could be but they are sending us home with pain meds.

We are going to leave soon and I'm genuinely so scared. I don't know what to do, how I can make him comfortable. I just need reassurance that he will be okay. This dog means the world to me I can't see him suffer for much longer. Please ask any questions in the comments, if I was incoherent at all. I just need to rant. I don't know what to do.

I'm about to go to sleep but I need to just get this out of my system and somewhere maybe someone can relate or help.

Extremely long story short my dad was a achololic and died from it. For context, a week before he died I blocked him because mom and dad were already divorced and I finally got the courge to fight for my mental health. It's been 2 years since his death. I've gone through a lot of therapy and processed a lot of what I need to + had other traumatic shit happen.

Tonight I had a long talk with my mom about grief and all the messy shit around it. I grieve "weird" I don't cry much, even when my grandma died I haven't cried about her (died a year ago). I was talking about how I feel guilty for not grieving correctly and how she would react if she knew I didn't cry. My mom helped a lot and explained to me she would understand. Then we got onto the topic of my dad, I started crying and finally said "what If I hadn't blocked him". She immediately said "no, (my name) he abused you" and legitimately in that moment is when I realized what I went through wasn't over exaggerated and I wasn't throwing around that word. I did go through emotional abuse.

It's just really heavy. I want my dad I thought I had, if that makes sense. I thought I could wait to talk to him until I was stable. Fuck grief, fuck addiction, fuck this shit.

This might be really incoherent cuz I'm like half asleep while writing this but I will clean it up tomorrow if needed. Goodnight everyone.