TRIGGER WARNING S.A
Hi I'm a 19yo dude who lives in Canada. Got SA'd numerous times by my uncle in my youth (mom side). Never told a soul about it, shit disgust me and I'm ashamed of it, even tho I know I shouldn't. I can't even get into a relationship because intimacy gets me really anxious because of it. Got approached by numerous girls, denied because of trauma ig. shit sucks.
5 years ago, my uncle started using drugs. I assume that maybe he started doing those because he regrets what he did or wtv. He quickly developed schizophrenia/psychosis and he really isn't doing well. He went numerous time in the psychward but keep using the drugs even tho he shouldn't or else he becomes delirious and crazy.
Everyone kinda abandoned helping him eventually because it was getting really exhausting for them, except for my mom. Since he is my mom's brother, she fights for his mental health every day and I can see that it is causting HER mental health. She is so determined to help my uncle but seeing that makes me sick. I can see that she is really stressed and she looks like she aged a lot in those five years.
Wanted to vent about it, keeped it short.