u/ManufacturerKind7009

I am a young man in his early 20s. Recently, I had the best 2 months. I have started feeling better, getting opportunities for internship interviews, and met my dream girl. I looked good and was making academic and fitness progress. Everything felt amazing.

The girl I met is 12 years older than me and fits every criterion I dreamt about. She was my first ever love. We could read each other's minds and were always laughing and having an amazing time. We both loved art and science and had a similar frequency. The more I got to know her, the more I loved her. I felt like I could fly when I was with her.

I have spent most of my life studying and working to achieve academic and professional success. She showed me a part of life I never knew existed.

Unfortunately, we both had to move and got separated by distance. As time went on, over 2 months, communication grew harder, and although I gave her my pure heart every day, I felt a distance and a lack of transparency between us.

Last 30 days, however, everything changed. I got rejected from all the internships (even after interviews at very prestigious places), my startup (which I started to support myself) is not performing, and I feel lost about my future.

2 days ago, I asked a question about how she was in her 20s (my age), and she reacted with aggression, saying I was humiliating her and making her uncomfortable. The reason I liked her maturity was that I found her more in control of her emotions, and I did not realise how easily she could be provoked. I really love her and apologised right away. She became cold for a day, then wrote to me how she loves me. I realised after her reaction that I feel terrible and guilty. I started finding myself thinking about what to say and what not to say to her. I thought that this was not a healthy foundation for a friendship or a relationship.

Today, she said she wants to call so we can explain our views, but reposted an Instagram story of another guy at a concert. My heart really started hurting. I texted her today that I need a break from this and do not want to explain myself or need any more drama.

What do I do? My young heart has never felt this and is hurting a lot. Should I have kept the long-distance going if this was true love? I had 3 intense gym workouts, bought a new book, and have been working all these days. But her absence is so loud.

TL;DR: I had the best two months after meeting my dream woman (12 years older), but long distance ruined our communication. After she got angry at a question, I texted her that I needed a break. Should I keep going or move on? Any advice would help.

I am a young man in his early 20s. Recently, I had the best 2 months. I have started feeling better, getting opportunities for internship interviews, and met my dream girl. I looked good and was making academic and fitness progress. Everything felt amazing.

The girl I met is 12 years older than me and fits every criterion I dreamt about. She was my first ever love. We could read each other's minds and were always laughing and having an amazing time. We both loved art and science and had a similar frequency. The more I got to know her, the more I loved her. I felt like I could fly when I was with her.

I have spent most of my life studying and working to achieve academic and professional success. She showed me a part of life I never knew existed.

Unfortunately, we both had to move and got separated by distance. As time went on, over 2 months, communication grew harder, and although I gave her my pure heart every day, I felt a distance and a lack of transparency between us.

Last 30 days, however, everything changed. I got rejected from all the internships (even after interviews at very prestigious places), my startup (which I started to support myself) is not performing, and I feel lost about my future.

2 days ago, I asked a question about how she was in her 20s (my age), and she reacted with aggression, saying I was humiliating her and making her uncomfortable. The reason I liked her maturity was that I found her more in control of her emotions, and I did not realise how easily she could be provoked. I really love her and apologised right away. She became cold for a day, then wrote to me how she loves me. I realised after her reaction that I feel terrible and guilty. I started finding myself thinking about what to say and what not to say to her. I thought that this was not a healthy foundation for a friendship or a relationship.

Today, she said she wants to call so we can explain our views, but reposted an Instagram story of another guy at a concert. My heart really started hurting. I texted her today that I need a break from this and do not want to explain myself or need any more drama.

What do I do? My young heart has never felt this and is hurting a lot. I have no one to tell this to. Should I have kept the long-distance going if this was true love?

TL;DR: I had the best two months after meeting my dream woman (12 years older), but long distance ruined our communication. After she got angry at a question, I texted her that I needed a break. Should I keep going or move on? Any advice would help.

Hello,

I am a graduate student. I have been practising breathwork and meditations for the past 2 years, but for the past 5 months, intensively. I have started feeling better, getting opportunities for interviews, and met my dream girl. Recently, I had the best 2 months of my life. My life changed colour. I loved myself and life.

Last 30 days, however, everything changed. I got rejected from all the internships (even after interviews at very prestigious places), am breaking up with my dream girl (I gave her my pure heart), my startup (which I started to support myself) is not performing, and I feel lost about my future.

I understand people go through much worse situations, that I am a young man, and that I should take responsibility and move on. I am very grateful for what I have and try to see the brighter side. It just seems strange that the reality I am in changed so suddenly, like an alternate universe. I was reading Reality Transurfing, so maybe it has to do with that?

Whenever I try to calm my mind, I cannot stop thinking of what is to come, and it feels like I am back in the "survival state". I think it started with the girl I met, because she was my first true love and fit everything I'd ever dreamt of, but we got separated by distance. Since then, communication has been hard, and I realised we value transparency differently (she started making me feel terrible and guilty). I really wanted to make it work, but it seems I have to end it with someone I gave my heart to because distance is draining my energy, and I always believed that healthy relationships should lift people. Now I will be stuck working 100%. Maybe the universe is protect from things? Should I cut contact if I feel terrible?

I am unable to focus on anything anymore. I am in a perpetual state of fear and anxiety. I try to do breathwork and manifest, but I can't. I am unable to focus on my work. I feel dizzy and want to throw up. It seems like I am not fully present anymore. I find myself staring into space, lost in thoughts, because I still can't understand how it seemed that I was on top of the world, and then everything crashed. I try to help people around me to take my mind off my ego but am still feeling very sick and ill at the time of writing this.

If you've been through this or have any advice (videos or books) to help feel elevated emotions again and get back on track to winning, please let me know. I understand the adage "and this too shall pass," but perhaps there is a faster way of moving on.

Thank you, my friends.

TL;DR: I had a "peak" month where everything was perfect, but now my career and relationship are suddenly collapsing. I’m stuck in a survival/fear state and struggling to get back to my practice. Any advice on navigating this "crash"?

Hello,

I am a graduate student. I have been practising breathwork and meditations for the past 2 years, but for the past 5 months, intensively. I have started feeling better, getting opportunities for interviews, and met my dream girl. Recently, I had the best 2 months of my life. My life changed colour. I loved myself and life.

Last 30 days, however, everything changed. I got rejected from all the internships (even after interviews at very prestigious places), am breaking up with my dream girl (I gave her my pure heart), my startup (which I started to support myself) is not performing, and I feel lost about my future.

I understand people go through much worse situations, that I am a young man, and that I should take responsibility and move on. I am very grateful for what I have and try to see the brighter side. It just seems strange that the reality I am in changed so suddenly, like an alternate universe. I was reading Reality Transurfing, so maybe it has to do with that?

Whenever I try to calm my mind, I cannot stop thinking of what is to come, and it feels like I am back in the "survival state". I think it started with the girl I met, because she was my first true love and fit everything I'd ever dreamt of, but we got separated by distance. Since then, communication has been hard, and I realised we value transparency differently (she started making me feel terrible and guilty). I really wanted to make it work, but it seems I have to end it with someone I gave my heart to because distance is draining my energy, and I always believed that healthy relationships should lift people. Now I will be stuck working 100%. Maybe the universe is protect from things? Should I cut contact if I feel terrible?

I am unable to focus on anything anymore. I am in a perpetual state of fear and anxiety. I try to do breathwork and manifest, but I can't. I am unable to focus on my work. I feel dizzy and want to throw up. It seems like I am not fully present anymore. I find myself staring into space, lost in thoughts, because I still can't understand how it seemed that I was on top of the world, and then everything crashed. I try to help people around me to take my mind off my ego but am still feeling very sick and ill at the time of writing this.

If you've been through this or have any advice (videos or books) to help feel elevated emotions again and get back on track to winning, please let me know. I understand the adage "and this too shall pass," but perhaps there is a faster way of moving on.

Thank you, my friends.

TL;DR: I had a "peak" month where everything was perfect, but now my career and relationship are suddenly collapsing. I’m stuck in a survival/fear state and struggling to get back to my practice. Any advice on navigating this "crash"?

Hello,

I am a graduate student. I have been practising breathwork and Joe Dispenza meditations for the past 2 years, but for the past 5 months, intensively. I have started feeling better, getting opportunities for interviews, and met my dream girl. Recently, I had the best 2 months of my life. My life changed colour. I loved myself and life.

Last 30 days, however, everything changed. I got rejected from all the internships (even after interviews at very prestigious places), am breaking up with my dream girl (I gave her my pure heart), my startup (which I started to support myself) is not performing, and I feel lost about my future.

I understand people go through much worse situations and that I should take responsibility and move on. I am very grateful for what I have. It just seems strange that the reality I am in changed so suddenly, like an alternate universe. I was reading Reality Transurfing, so maybe it has to do with that?

Whenever I try to calm my mind, I cannot stop thinking of what is to come, and it feels like I am back in the "survival state". I think it started with the girl I met, because she was my first true love and fit everything I'd ever dreamt of, but we got separated by distance. Since then, communication has been hard, and I realised we value transparency differently (she started making me feel terrible and guilty). I really wanted to make it work, but it seems I have to end it with someone I gave my heart to because distance is draining my energy, and I always believed that healthy relationships should lift people. Now I will be stuck working 100%. Maybe the universe is protect from things?

I am unable to focus on anything anymore. I am in a perpetual state of fear and anxiety. I try to do breathwork and BOTEC, but I can't. I am unable to focus on my work. I feel dizzy and want to throw up. It seems like I am not fully present anymore. I find myself staring into space, lost in thoughts, because I still can't understand how it seemed that I was on top of the world, and then everything crashed. I try to help people around me to take my mind off my ego but am still feeling very sick and ill at the time of writing this.

If you've been through this or have any advice (videos or books) to help feel elevated emotions again and get back on track to winning, please let me know. I understand the adage "and this too shall pass," but perhaps there is a faster way of moving on.

Thank you, my friends.

TL;DR: I had a "peak" month where everything was perfect, but now my career and relationship are suddenly collapsing. I’m stuck in a survival/fear state and struggling to get back to my practice. Any advice on navigating this "crash"?