u/Living_Effective_580

I have always been a hopeless romantic but now that I’m my late 20s I feel as though romantic love is not real it’s a fantasy . I don’t think I have actually ever been in love and I don’t see myself falling in love with anyone ever. it just seems so naive the whole idea of ‘falling in love’ .Idk if it’s because I have never seen healthy examples of relationships in my life but it’s always one person putting in more effort more than the other it’s all very transactional and conditional. Anytime someone expresses interest in me I just don’t see the point bc I know it will end eventually. Honestly I feel quite dead inside like I’m unable to love anyone in that sense. Does anyone else relate to this?

I’m an INFP and I’ve known this ENTJ for a few years now.When we talk, it’s usually about random life topics he tends to be quite interrogative but doesn’t reveal much about himself. He often randomly ask deep questions like what’s your goal in life? and similar things. He also teases a lot during our conversations and somehow seemed to quickly figure out that I’m an INFP without me saying.The dynamic is a bit unusual because I tend to ghost him for long periods sometimes even six months or more(ik im working on it) . But whenever I come back and text him again, he always replies and things go back to normal like nothing happened.He doesn’t seem particularly bothered by the ghosting either. Sometimes he jokes about it or double texts me, saying things like when are you coming back? or do I have to wait until the end of the year? Anyway I don’t really get it , does he like me ?