Trying to get better
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One of my compulsions was constantly searching about sexuality on social media and here on Reddit, and I’ve been slowly stopping that.
Also, I used to spend at least 3 hours a day on Reddit, and in the last 4 days I’ve spent less than 1 hour.
I stopped checking if movies or shows had LGBT people or LGBT content
I stopped avoiding LGBT influencers that show up naturally on my feed. If the content interests me, I watch it.
The thoughts haven’t stopped, but it’s gotten a little better. When they show up, I usually get a bit sarcastic or say “whatever” and try to move on with my day.
It’s still been REALLY hard, and I still do a lot of compulsions and ruminate a lot, but I’ve noticed a small improvement
Soon I plan to take bigger steps, but for now I’m trying to stabilize my mood and my anxiety, which is still pretty high