Scared losing weight will take away the only not-ugly features I have.
I want to lose weight. No, I need to lose weight. Not only is the weight I am now pretty unattractive it's also unhealthy. I want to be around for my family as long and as well as I can.
I am also so scared of losing weight.
I basically have 2 things I like about my appearance. I look pretty young for my age, and I have been blessed in the chest. I honestly feel that the boobs are the only reason anyone could be attracted to me, because the rest is kinda yuck. And I know that I will lose them if I lose a significant amount of weight and there will probably also be a fair amount of loose skin on my midsection and chest. I feel like I've ruined myself and will look even worse after. I also know that losing a lot of weight can make your features sharper and lead to some wrinkles which will make my face look older.
I'm just...sad ...I don't like how I look now and I feel doing what I need to do will likely make me look worse.