I’m scared what do I do
I’m 16 and growing up in the church I’m different. I’m an adopted by a single white struggling mom who’s only cope is the church . She’s bipolar and she used to abuse me as a kid and try to force me to sing Mormon songs and be holy. The people treat us awful . They judge and back talk and have hurt my mom a lot . I don’t know why she still goes. She doesn’t have a job and we live off my adoption money and she is in debt. No one offers to help she has no friends and she’s just a total mess. I was talking to one of my church friends cus I’m homeschooled and barley have any friends that I was planning to leave the church when I turn 17-18 or when I move out and go to college. I said this back from doing baptisms for the dead in a leaders car idk why I just was so over it I wanted to go home. I said that a little too loud and the crazy Mormon leader started threatening to pull the car over if I meant what I said. Holy shit it was terrifying. A girl overhead who’s the stake bishops daughter (their family is head obv top tier) but they are very white and Mormon and Utah perfect family type judgy people. They never included me in anything or reached out and treated my mom bad. The daughter freaking snitched on me and now my mom is in a breakdown but is accepting it because I’ve been fighting for my freedom because anyways once I’m 18 I’m going to leave either way I don’t care if I’m homeless I’m moving out. My sister offered me a room and a job so I’m doing that . My mom is a bit more accepting still crazy though. All of my family moved out right at 18 because my grandma and mom are crazy. Now the stake bishop wants to have a meeting with my mom about me and I’m scared because they are going to try to pull me back in. The church teaching have not done anything good for me. (They teach to be kind love one another) none of them do that . They think they are better than normal people and above tier because they don’t drink coffee but drink 100 sodas a day. When I ask questions they never explain it to me and just say it’s because “God said it” how do we know that though? I still have faith in God but I don’t know about Joseph smith and all that other stuff. I want to drink my coffee in peace . I don’t want to get married in the temple and do cult worships in there . The leaders at the church are so mean and crazy witches as well