Am I in the wrong here?
I posted this in another subreddit. My situationship blew up in my face recently. I will spare the details but he lied about a lot of things including spending time alone with other women. Exclusivity was a grey area because we never sat down and had an official conversation, but he told me he was talking to no one else on multiple different occasions and would let me know in group settings if other women were there. For me I would legit let him know if I was doing things alone with other men which was only once (I caught up with an old friend on a trip) I gave him full trust which I should not have but I came across a profile in my suggested accounts with him and another girl in a profile picture. They had gone to a sorority event that she had posted, in addition to the profile picture that he lied to me about it being a work thing, so I messaged the girl trying to figure out what is going on. When I confronted him, He downplayed it saying it was an event with a friend and took no accountability and did not apologize but he lied about it to me and also had paused his location that night of the event and other nights following. I should also clarify he had told me he was so busy and hadn’t made effort to see me in over a month (huge red flag I know) I planned to break things off but in the middle of that she texted him my message to her. He flipped out at me after she messaged him my message and he told me to never contact him again and we are too old for the games (which i wholeheartedly agree with) and implied i was insane for messaging her and causing drama, but now I’ve been feeling guilty about escalating things. I usually am level headed and try and talk things through with people (there were previous situations similar with this guy) but I guess I wasn’t thinking clearly in the heat of the moment which led to that. In the arguing I did lie to him and said my friend had sent the message and not myself which I don’t like that I did I should have been honest. He has since blocked me on everything, and I’ve been feeling guilty, anxious and depressed. Most of my friends have told me I didn’t do anything wrong, while some said I shouldn’t have messaged the girl and just ended it. Should I be feeling guilty about this situation and did I do something wrong? I don’t feel like I deserved to be blocked over this, even though it’s definitely for the better.