u/KadakChaaiaurMaggie

Not trying to start a debate or something.

Sorry if the title sounds classist. What I mean here by saying class is not somebody's economical condition. I myself come from a lower middle class background and so most of my friends . But CGL aspirants are different kinds of shallow people.

Aaj koyi nayi baat nahi hai. It has always been like this only. Justification ye hota hai ki CGL is an avg govt job exam that gives financially weak people a life changing opportunity. So most of the people are from poor financial backgrounds who lack exposure. I understand. But this can't be justification for the lack of basic decency in them. I'm sorry to make this statement but some of these are potential r*pists. They really are. If you're a woman you'll understand and wouldn't ask me why I made this statement.

Bhai thode bohot creep, kharab log toh har community mein hota hai but it's scary how creepy CGL community is. I understand why there are hardly any women present in this sub or in the comments of any CGL video on youtube.

You should check the comments under the videos of female CGL aspirant Youtubers or even somebody any female who has cracked the exam. It's so demotivating. You would not want to be a youtuber anymore to be honest. At least i wouldn't.

Baaki kisi bhi academic community check karlo, this doesn't happen anywhere. Not even banking.

Bohot bura lagta hai. Agar itna sab kuchh ke baad ye exam crack ho bhi gaya, it's not worth it. Because especially as a woman you can never think of settling in this job full of creeps around.

I really hope I did a little better with making decisions. Agar thodi si better life choices rakhli hoti Aaj lakhon creeps ke saath ek highly competitive exams na dena padta. This wouldn't have been my only option now. I have no other option rn so I'm continuing to this shit. If you have something else to switch to, please do.

Because it's absolutely unsettling and disgusting, not only the exam preparation process, but also the life after selection. So what are you even grinding for?

Ab koyi aake bolega , Didi competition ghatane ki kosis kar rhi hai.

Are nahi bhai. Karo tum preparation. I don't care. Aur agar random post dekhke you get influenced, exam tumhari kabhi crack honi hi nahi thi fir. So I have no other intentions, I'm just frustrated.

And i thought like venting it out here because i still have some hope left that there may be 4 people out of 10 is not like this. May be some are girls and some others are actually real nice sophisticated males.

Lately I have been seeing nice posts about aspirants completing their targets, talking about the actual preparation and it feels fresh and authentic and inspiring. So I'm hoping do chaar log log hai abhi bhi jo creep nahi hai.

Otherwise it's' very very demotivating for me.

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I'm 24. I was an above average student in school and college.

All my life I've been thinking "whatever I'm a good person."

But now it feels like I'm not. I've never been.

I've been preparing for CGL since 2024 February.

In 2024 i didn't even go to appear in the exam I was so careless. In 2025 i have first attempt but with nearly 20% preparation because I don't study. I study for 3 days consecutively with all my attention and then something happens. I stopped studying for 2-3 months. Again , 2-3 days and again the same loop goes on. I come from a toxic, abusive family background. I know how much I need this job.

But still I don't study. All I do is sit all day scrolling the phone screen, watch movies, shows. Since I have a very toxic relationship with my parents. So, I live in a metro city for preparation. And this is what I'm doing. It's not like I'm in a relationship or i go out or having a lavish lifestyle. I'm just at home and not studying. Since last 2 yrs I have been just trying how to study.

I tried journaling for self improvement. Tried healthy lifestyle. Even therapy. I'm so messed up with my relationship with my parents that my therapist doesn't even get a chance to work on my study problem. Even though she tried it's not working. And the sad thing is I've been trying to improve myself all along. Idk what tf I do. I just exist doing nothing. I need this job. More than ever. Still I can't get myself to study. I have a laptop, a phone. All the resources.

I feel like hating myself when I think about under-privileged people. I have everything and I'm doing nothing. I don't deserve to live anymore. I was a scholar student. What have I done with my life? All my classmates, friends have done something big in their career or at least have a job. I am not even working hard. I have everything and I don't deserve any of it. I don't even know how much I score in mocks because i don't remember when last time I gave one. I'm scared of giving mocks. Idk what to do.

Even the exam is getting tougher. With this version of myself I can't crack this exam ever.

I'm 25. It has always been my choice. I enjoy it. I like the feeling of falling for a guy. I've been in love. (At least it felt so that time)

The moment I sensed I was falling in love with this guy, I ended the friendship.

It took me months to get over him. He has no idea about it.

So yeah, I fell in love. I liked falling in love. I might fall in love again in my life.

But that's it. It's my calculated choice to not take actions upon my feelings.

I come from a toxic abusive family. I've experienced terrible break ups in friendships. I'm an extremist emotionally. I took a lot of time to move on from freaking friendship break-up only. Not to sound cliche or something but I'm actually broken inside. So it's difficult for me to be in a committed romantic relationship.

But I'm a great friend. I'm a great roommate. I'm a great listener. Mentioned these because that's how I fill the void. My life is not sad because I've never been in a relationship. I've everything I chose to have. I'm great with kids too. I want to have kids some day. There are lots of other ways to have one.

Please don't ignore my post thinking it's chatgpt. I swear I wrote everything on my own. Took me a lot of time. Please guide me I beg you!

My_qualifications:

Hi. I'm 24F.

I'm a Physics graduate (2023).

7.45 SGPA from a tier 1 university.

About me:

I'm passionately interested in Psychology. I couldn't make a decision to make a switch to Psych right after my graduation because of my personal reasons and family situations. I have a 3 year gap now.

Why Psychology Conversion in UK ?

Everyone, I'm sorry I might sound vulnerable but I've already almost lost Psychology as my dream because IGNOU has withdrawn MA Psychology. No Govt Universitiy will accept non psych student for Master's program. Now, i don't want to get into private university because it's expensive and I'm not sure how much ROI it will be in India.

Studying abroad has always been my dream but 2 yrs masters programme + placement or studying in Germany was more achievable dream for me as it's affordable for someone like me who's from a middle class background.

Now, UK is probably the only country that has Psychology conversion programme designed for non psych students like me.

What's my problem now?

From whatever information I've gathered till now, it's going to be a lengthy, long term process to be a psychologist or therapist in UK ( I mean settling down there) because one has to do :

Psychology conversion (1 / 2 year programme) —> specialised master's degree ( in clinical/applied/ counselling) (1/2 year programme, depends) —> Doctorate degree (3/4 years or more—> HCPC registration for getting license ( 1 year or more)

An almost 10 year roadmap just to get the license.

After this I can practice. I'm not sure if I'll be earning enough to survive there even after these 10 years.

Is time a problem for me? No

Then what's the problem and why am I here?

**(**Assuming I'm not getting a fully funded scholarship)

The problem is I need to know what maximum budget am i looking at here ? It'll be great if experienced people or anybody who has idea about it can give me a number. Do I need to have money saved to survive for the next 10 years in UK ? Or I'll be earning something even if it's minimal to survive during my studies.

What total budget am i looking at ? Because I need to tell my parents and most importantly I need to know for myself because I need a reality check to stop dreaming for it.

Is it 50L? Is it 70-80 L? Or more ?

I hope my post doesn't sound silly. I'm really lost here. Please help me out. Any suggestion, information, anything will be appreciated.

I have been seeing ads and even contacted one. They're saying it's FREE OF CHARGE from application to visa.

How's this possible? Am I getting scammed?

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