Posting here instead of contacting my ubpd :/ first Mother’s Day stings a bit
Since I’m not sending it my parent, I’m going to post this here to help process I guess.
I have a million things to be thankful for right now and luckily don’t care about or have any expectations for this holiday for myself. It’s my first year as a mom and married and my husband brought me an adorable card with a corner nibbled off by our baby.
But none of this changes that I’m bummed my mom stopped speaking to me more than six months ago, a month after my wedding and 3 months after I had a baby. I still sent her Mother’s Day flowers because I do appreciate many things about her raising me. But she’s ignored that and instead, posted on social media about gifts from her newly discovered step daughter. It stings a lot and I’m sure that’s the point.
She’s missing out on time with a grand baby and me as a mom, and absent when we really need some help. We also have another baby on the way so it’s making us think very hard about who are support circle is.
Everything about the last year and how much my wedding offended my mom, how much I offended her over wanting to spend Christmas morning at home with my new husband and baby, and how completely rude she was about her feelings and blowing off this important time has caused irreparable damage. I really don’t think I can even do the mental gymnastics to see it from her point of view and give her the benefit of the doubt.
I’m just really sad this holiday, that I don’t care about but I know she really does, has permanently damaged our relationship on my end.
Oh and my dad texted me this morning asking for money. So that was also fun.
Hope all the moms and all the people with moms are having a nice day!! Everything can be so hard but a holiday shouldn’t make things worse!