I’m a senior in high school and my ex and I haven’t talked since around March. We ended things. We also sit next to each other in class but don’t talk at all anymore. With graduation coming up, I’ve been feeling like I don’t want to leave this chapter of my life without at least apologizing properly and wishing him well. I don’t want to get back together or reopen anything, I just want to leave things on a good note and have some closure.
At the same time I’m worried it might:
- come off as random since we haven’t talked in months bc I ended things
- reopen things emotionally
- or just make things more awkward
Part of me feels like I’ll regret not saying anything, but another part of me thinks it might be better to just leave it alone.
I wrote out a message I’d send (I’ll paste it below). do you think I should send it or just let things be?
Here’s the message:
Hi I’m sorry to text you so abruptly. I know it might not be fair of me and I understand if the best thing would be to leave you alone. But I didn’t want to leave our final years of high school without saying something. I could’ve waited until summer but I felt like I needed to say it now.
I just wanted to give you a real mature apology. I’ve had regrets, and my biggest would’ve been not apologizing to you properly. I hope you don’t read this thinking I have any ill intent.
I’m really sorry for ever bringing any negativity to you. I never wanted to hurt you, even though I understand that I did, and I take responsibility for that.
I also want to say that when I told you maybe we shouldn’t text anymore, I’ve reflected on that a lot. I feel like I may not have handled it the right way. Removing you from my socials was never out of resentment, it was just for my own peace of mind since I knew I’d keep checking your accounts and I thought creating that distance might help both of us.
Toward the end it felt like we were naturally growing apart, and I thought it was best to fully close that chapter so we could both move on and focus on our own paths. That’s also why I stepped back the way I did.
After we officially stopped talking, I tried to still be on good terms in class by saying hi, but I wasn’t sure if it was making things uncomfortable, so I eventually gave more space. That wasn’t from anger or anything like that, just me trying to respect the situation.
Whether you understand my perspective/actions or not, I respect whatever you feel about it. I just want you to know there was no resentment from my side, only care in how I handled things.
I also wanted to say congratulations on (his college name but won’t insert on this post) and your other college. I hope it’s not weird that I know, I just overheard. I’m genuinely really happy for you, and I’ve always known you deserved it because of how hard you’ve worked.
I also want to make clear this isn’t me trying to come back into your life. It’s just me hoping the best for you and expressing what I needed to say. I didn’t want to close a chapter in my life with someone I care for and have there be any negativity and without acknowledging things properly, so this is my way to take accountability and make things right.
I don’t expect anything from this and I’m sorry if reaching out is unexpected. I just didn’t want to leave without giving you the apology you deserved and wishing you the best. Whatever you do I know you’ll do really well.