u/JustaSecretIdentity

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My PTSD stems from MST, but most of the time when I do have nightmares, it’s mostly about monsters chasing me. Lately though, there’s been a few nightmares that include SA. It’s been a little disquieting… especially since I haven’t had nightmares like that since the year my trauma occurred.

I don’t know why I’m suddenly having more nightmares lately. Maybe it’s my anxiety from the state of my country lately that’s triggering it? I try not to focus much on it, no point in fussing over things that I have little to no control over, especially when I have a disability that has been debilitating in the past, which can unfortunately be triggered by my mental state.

I think I’ve been in more anxious straits with a lot less nightmares though, so I don’t get it.

Anyone else experience something similar? If so, what helped?

And during a nation-wide shortage, at that!

It’s only 5mg, but I’m just happy to have my experiences growing up as an undiagnosed kid, struggling to keep up with everyone else and feeling like a failure for not being able to focus, finally validated by a professional really relieving.

I suspect that other people in my family might have it too, but I’m the only one (that I know of) getting treatment for it. Part of the reason why is because our culture looks down on mental health as “not real” and would rather “save face” than get treatment. It’s sad, but I’d really like to break the cycle, starting with me.

It might not seem much, but it’s a huge step for me. I’m so excited to finally get treatment!