Not sure if I fucked up, how do I solve this
Is it okay to "mask" / pretend one is doing better in order to actually get better? I just started therapy, and after a few sessions I got taken out of the group because the group was already long established, and hence they were already far ahead of me, which lead to me not understanding a ton of stuff and needing to ask questions. Others would ask maybe 1 or 2 I was at like 6. My therapist said it was disruptive despite my questions being necessary. So it was similar to how in school I had the option to shut up and understand only 70 or 80% of something, or to ask questions and be annoying.
The 1 on 1 thing isn't necessarily bad even though I'll miss the group. The problem and why im asking about how to mask/decieve is because, group therapy was once a week. These one on one's will be once a month at best once every 3 weeks, so I will be getting way less therapy. How does one mask well enough to appear functional in order to be able to be able to take advantage of the entire therapeutic regiment that was at one point available to me?