I made this Reddit, well I was in my last attempt in giving the christian faith a last try with going to a new SDA church. But that did not work out as I am to strict to following our Father.
I think maybe that is why I was abused so bad in my christian home growing up, my heart it to connected to our Father. Maybe my disability has something to do with it, but one thing that made me feel never to fit in with the group in the christian church is how my believes have always been to follow our Father. I also do not agree fully with how much of the pagan religion is in it witch is a evil religion, I seen this after I asked the Father for truth, he shown me it in 2019. What made me never to fit in all my life, is how I will tell people, no man came so we can sin and free us from following the father, we all on earth have to follow the covenant our Father made with us all. I will tell people it is not important if the messiah came or not in my personal believes but what is most important is to follow the Torah/instructions the Father gave us. Never less I was never someone that had friends and people was against any member or the church helping me, this could be because I am not like them and to much like a Jew.
This is why I finally accepted The Father did not form me with a christian heart, but he formed me with a heart that is only for him/a Jewish heart. I understand if some do not agree with this because I was born a Gentile. But even so I now I left that church and starting my conversion in Judaism, but I understand other Jews might judge me on my handle on Reddit, so I ask if any one knows how to change it? Because people down vote my last post where all I said was I am starting my conversion, im excited and nervous, (do to being so excited to find a place and family that not only accepts me but where it feels right and my heart feels at peace in the service) I only asked for advice on how to dress for Sabbath Morning service, but some people down voted it, I can only assume it is because of my Reddit Handle.