u/Itz_MysteryGalaxy

Happy Mother’s Day, Gram… I miss you. I wish you were still here.

I want my grandma back. She was like my best friend.

I miss her so much. I’ve tried to not think about it but that’s hard. I wish she was still here. We were so close. She’s gone. This isn’t fair. I hate this.

I’ve been wondering this for a while. we only know so much about dinosaurs from their fossils and not every fossil skeleton that’s dug up is complete or intact. Some prehistoric creatures have only had some fossilized remains found (like the megalodon).

how do scientists know if a fossilized skeleton is complete or not? is it just an estimate based on currently living animals? or is there another way they dec if a fossil is complete?

Officially been one month (plus one day) without my grandma.

I miss her. I went to prom yesterday and had no fun because I mostly thought about her and how I couldn’t tell her about it or show her any of the pictures I took. She has missed our drama club play where my twin was the lead and she will miss our high school graduation. She’ll miss us going to college and learning to be an adult. We would sometimes ask her for advice or if we needed something and she would always be there. But now, if we needed something or need advice from her, we can’t do that.

I was making a project in art class recently where I combined my favorite food and animal into one creature. As I was painting it, I thought “I should ask Gram what her favorite food and animal are so I can combine them into a clay creature for her!” But then I remembered. She’s dead. I can’t do that. I can never make her another art piece again. I know she loved it when we made stuff for her. I made her a little basket one year and she used it until the day she died. She still has art pieces my twin and I made as kids on her walls. She had a terrible drawing I made when I was about 7 years old for her that is her as a superhero in her kitchen cabinet for years so she could see it whenever she opened it. It’s not currently on the fridge at my mom’s house.

As my mon has said, this whole situation is like a bay bird leaving its nest. But, instead of being gently led out of the nest, grandma dropped my twin and I out of it. She was supposed to still be here. It’s not fair. I wish she was still here. So much is going on this year that I thought she would where to see. But she’s not.

I’m so used to telling her about my day. I can’t do that anymore. I can’t tell her how school is going. Can’t tell her how I’m nervous for college. Can’t tell her how much I love and miss her. I want her back. There’s an old video of me and my twin before school (u think it was first day of kindergarten) and I told her “I love you grandma. You’re my best friend.” I think that’s still true even though shes gone. But now my best friend is dead.

I miss you, Gram. Why did you have to go? I need you.

I know we aren’t the most popular people in school. But come on! You could have at least told us about the hang outs you all were doing after each of the drama club shows instead of lie to us about it. My twin is literally the lead and hasn’t been told a single thing about any of the hangouts the rest of the cast have been doing after each show this year. I’m not even in the group chat even though one of them said they would add me to it. If you didn’t like us or want us around, just fucking say it instead of lying to our faces.

It’s literally our senior year. I’m so glad I won’t have to deal with these assholes anymore in a week.

Wait. I just remembered that I may still have to see one of those assholes because I learned a few days ago we are going to the same college next year. FUCK!

First theater show without her. It felt weird to not see her car in her spot an hour early. The director (or someone else) still put grandma’s chair out that she always used instead of the normal metal chairs because she had a bad back. The director even put a flower on it as a little tribute.

I’m already going to guess that, by the time opening night is over, I am going to cry because she wasn’t here to see it. If there is an afterlife, I hope she’s with grandpa and they’re watching us do this show from whatever afterlife exists. Love you, gram. I miss you so much.

I usually get this: 6 inch Italian (white) bread, ham, salami, lettuce, and cheese (usually the shredded cheese). I’ve been getting this same sandwich for years every time I go to Subway.

However, I’ve been recently thinking about changing it a bit. Part of me is thinking about replacing the salami with bacon. Would that be good? What other meat should I change it to if not that?