ive been so excited about this dress ever since i got it — this style of clothing i feel like usually doesn’t look very good on me because i have a big bust, so i was very happy when i tried this on and bought it immediately.
I just watched porn for the first time yesterday and honestly it just grossed me out. I think I mostly watched it out of a morbid curiosity (I didn’t even seek it out, I just stumbled across it) but that shit was nasty.
I’m pretty sure I’m somewhere on the ace spectrum because I’ve never been sexually attracted to anyone, not even like, fictional characters. Never looked at someone and thought “yeah, I’d like to have sex with them.”
But yk, at the same time, I do read smut occasionally, and/or masturbate — so, it’s not that I never feel anything, just not when it comes to like… real people.
Like, I’m content with just pleasuring myself, and the thought of other people being involved gives me creepy crawlies.
I’m also a virgin and I’ve never had a serious relationship, so it’s hard to tell. Like, maybe if I found the right person I’d be open to it, but I don’t know.
It’s weird. I feel weird about it.