u/InternalWest4579

It's hard to explain for me but I'm recently on a break from school and I just feel like I'm stuck and trying to get better and failing and I had an addiction to reddit which is so fricking pathetic and I don't know what to do and I care too much about people who don't care about me and get attached or idealise or get obsessed over them and I feel like in every conversation I'm just saying the same three things over and over again and I feel like shit sometimes and feel okay in other times and I'm just so tired of everything and also lonely at the same time and also lazy and burnt out and everything everywhere all at once. I feel like I just want to eat my cake and have it too. And at this point I don't know what I'm searching for anymore. And words don't seem to help. Sorry the post is all so morbid it's just a lot sometimes, sometimes it's okay but sometimes it's a lot.

So I (like some of you, I assume) like sometimes to go on r/depression and help some people. Yesterday I talked to this sweet boy around my age (I'm 17M btw) and trying to help him. He was in a bad space and felt like nobody cares about him. I just wanted to help him. I would say I can sometimes get over attached to people I just met, especially if I feel like they are going to leave. So I was talking to him and said goodnight and then today I said hello and then he said hello and a few minutes later he deleted his account. And now I just feel like I lost him. I'm now crying in my bed, I hate this situation and I hate myself for putting myself in it. And I just feel so bad I don't want to leave my bed. I don't want to do anything. I just feel like if I just messaged him before he deleted his account we could have kept talking or I don't know...

Hey everyone, I'm 17 and sometimes I have a fear that I'm going to do something or not do something and regret it in the future. Like I'm supposed to have like what some would describe the most careless years of my life and I fear when I'm older I'm going to be looking back to the time where I didn't need to go to work or pay taxes and regret I didn't do X or Y or thinking I should have done that or the other. Or I guess just any advice would be useful. So I'm asking you guys. If you could go back in time to your 17 year old self what would you tell him?

17M I think the whole day I searched for people to talk to in here or other subs but I think I'm done with that and maybe I should just post something here. So anybody wanna talk?

Hi, not too sure if this is the right sub but I (17M) appear to have a problem of only liking straight men and men who don't like me back.

I think it may come from a more deep problem (god knows I have some). Maybe it comes from this cycle of me caring too much about people who I know won't care back and expecting something different and getting disappointed which is unhealthy I know and it fucks with my self esteem and self image and it's bad but I keep falling for this and I hate that.

I also do want to be dating someone in high school. I came out a few years ago and still nothing. And I don't know if that is because people are not attracted to me or I have high standards (I don't think so) or if I'm just attracted to straight people. I also have a horrible gaydar so I may think someone is gay but they're really straight and I don't know which one's which and it's all really frustrating. Combine that with my depression, intrusive thoughts and horniness as a teen and it's a fricking nightmare. And I don't know what to do. I just want someone that loves me.

Any advices?