idk if this is common with bpd, but i experience this cycle between feeling super stressed and super bored a lot. it's probably my nervous system jumping from total hyperactivation to the opposite.
anyway, i wonder if anybody can help with this? can anyone relate and have you found anything that helps?
i have recently moved to a new city to go to university here. at the moment, i am really stressed due to lectures and other appointments.
one element that i notice is enhancing the stress is the fact that i have to ride the bus up to 6 times a day. mostly just for 10 minutes at a time, but it's really hard on my nervous system, especially when it's super crowded and there's so much sensory overload from all the people cramped together in the small space.
i've been thinking that maybe there are techniques to make my daily bus rides more enjoyable, but so far i haven't been creative enough to come up with anything reasonable. i'd love to hear your suggestions if you can think of any:)
i have a formal bpd diagnosis, even though i don't experience as much distress as others with the same diagnosis may do.
however, i am cirrently experiencing a lot of change in my life and as a result also lots of worries. sometimes the worries intensify and i feel very, very scared. the key problem is i don't even know who i am, what i am doing, what should become of me. idk i feel so scared and like i am going insane.
is that something anybody with bpd can relate to? if so, can you please explain to me what is going on, and how i can deal with it?
i feel like my sense of self is disintegrating i have no idea who the hell i am and it's scary af.
i've had anorexia for much longer without ever purging, but last year i started throwing up occasionally.
i'm at a healthy weight now but sometimes i still purge and every time it feels good for a moment, but then an hour later it's actually just more destabilising than before because i think my body doesn't like the feeling of how i'm taking away its food right out of the stomach. which is of course the feeling i like, but then the day after purging is usually still marked by a lot of chaotic eating as well, because my body gets confused by the sudden drop in blood sugar and everything. so emotionally, it then sucks just as bad to have weird, intense hunger or cravings right after i managed to purge.
it's like....isn't purging supposed to "help", but then it only makes everything more messy?